Constants Become Surreal

Moving Over To Wordpress

2009-12-27T11:46:00.001-08:00

Decided i much preferred the layout of wordpress and things i can do on there. So the move isn't official yet, but i am moving all my blogs over there. So look out for me @ constantsbecomesurreal.wordpress.com <3

Merry Christmas!!

2009-12-25T10:20:00.000-08:00

It's Christmas day. Sorry i didn't update yesterday. We've had a pretty fantastic white christmas here in New Jersey with the Haley's. So far they've received Beatles Rockband, Wii, Wii sports and i'm sure we'll come across some more amazing things. So i hope everyone had a very Merry Christmas and i can't wait to play Lose that Girl on the Beatle's Rock band.

#92 The Beatles

I don't care who you are. EVERYONE loves some beatles song. Of course most people love them all, but there is no denying the Beatles and their infectious music. So on my list of AWESOME things, i present to you... THE BEATLES!

#91 Finding a Christmas Present Still Under the Tree the Next Day

It's amazing because you don't realize you had one so there is no unnecessary anxious anticipation. And then it's the most amazing Christmas present just because it's like a little secret surprise.

MY Top 10 Beatles Songs - In no particular order and there are probably a lot more but this is just of the ones off the top of my head.

10. Something

9. Get Back

8. Lose That Girl

7. Here Comes the Sun

6. Octopuses Garden

5. Because

4. All My Loving

3. While my Guitar Gently Weeps

2. Rocky Raccoon

1. And I Love Her

Considering changing my blog to a wordpress account

2009-12-20T07:09:00.000-08:00

if you have one, let me know what you think of it. Also would i be able to transfer all these previous blogs?

ha ha ok well here is the list of awesome things for this week. Once again a little late, but while I'm on winter break everything will probably be running a few days behind. Not that i have a ton of things to do, I'm just in no rush and want to take this blog writing and finding pictures to a new level. Some of nenuphars pics are amazing and i would love to know where she finds them.

#94 SNOW

If you're from a place that NEVER gets snow... you're like me and enjoy the trips that greet you with snow. Not enough to keep you stranded for days inside your house, but enough for you to spend a day inside and make the excuse that you can't go anywhere because of it. Enjoy the view, grab some hot cocoa or coffee and just sit back and relax. If it's snowing, everyone else is in their house, and it's almost as though the world has come to a stand still. <3

#93 Getting the cool side of the pillow

I have been informed that it takes 20 minutes for a pillow to cool off. Thus i have created the perfect solution. Every 5 minutes, make a 180 degree turn of your pillow. Think of putting the top side closer to your face. Then 5 minutes later, turn the pillow over. another 5 minutes, do the top to bottom approach. Then repeat the flip and voila!! cool pillow for all 20 minutes!! of course this isn't really helpful when it's 20 degrees outside and you're actually in search of the warm side of the pillow. In that case have someone go to bed before you and steal one of their pillows!

Awoke to b sketching and it's going to snow tomorrow

2009-12-18T09:17:00.001-08:00

I arrived in jersey a little later than expected last night. Also there was no internet on the plane as they had promised. So i didn't get a chance to update while on the plane and this post is a day late. But I'm very excited to be here. I'm going to hopefully find some time this weekend to head into the city and grab a magnolia's cupcake and meet up with an old high school friend who recently moved to NYC. Licorice, b's cat, has just jumped on the bed to say hello. b's currently working on some art work for a winter church trip retreat and it's coming along really pretty. I'll take some pictures of her artwork later and put them on here for you all to see.

Top 10 Favorite songs about traveling

10. Around the World - Red Hot Chilli Peppers

9. at the bottom of everything

8. see fernando - jenny lewis

7. may it be- Enya

6. have gun, will travel - the audition

5. First train home - imogen heap

4. America - Simon and Garfunkel

3. bruised - Jacks Mannequin

2. interstate love song - stone temple pilots

1. back to California - The Wallflowers

Also with Christmas one week away i wanted to do a christmas list

Top 10 Christmas Songs

10. Ave Maria - just about anyone who can sing

9. It came upon a midnight clear

8. Mary did you know?

7. Baby, It's cold outside - Zooey Deschanel

6. What Child is this - Enya

5. Carol of the Bells - The Bird and The Bee

4. Last Christmas - Jimmy Eat World

3. I'll be home for Christmas - Josh Groban

2. Grown up Christmas List - Natalie Cole

1. She came home for Christmas - Mew

Darling I Want to Destroy You

2009-12-12T17:12:00.000-08:00

JUST realized i hadn't added to my 100 awesome things list this week. So instead of editing the last blog for the 100th time i'm just going to add a mid-week post.

#96 - Finishing a paper

I don't know about you guys, but if you've ever been in college and written anything more than a 5 page paper, you understand the feeling of relief and happiness that comes over you when you're finished. As finals week is commencing this week, i have fully understood this while writing a 12 page, 2x 5 page, and a 4 page paper. Life is good even when you finish just one. So you can fully understand this awesome feeling if you've ever been here. If not, well think of it like this. You've been searching for that PERFECT christmas present for almost 2 months and FINALLY you find it. You drive all over town, calling hundreds of stores. But until the person opens it and has the reaction you're looking for, you're filled with happiness that you have accomplished you're goal. YEAH finishing a paper feels like that!

#95 Crawling into bed after a long night out

It's been a great night out. You mingled with either friends or schmoozed with the elite. Drinks were amazing and the food was decent. You danced and gossiped and maybe along the way stopped off for a late night burger. After all the fun you've been having, you're feet are killing you, your coat is no longer keeping you warm and all you want is to go home and crawl into bed. Perhaps repeating this experience the next night. You stumble on home, strip down, jump into bed and before you realize it you're asleep. Bed and sleep have never seemed so amazing.

And If You're Not Content to Just Believe and If You Don't Consent To Just Let It Be, Stretch Out Your Legs and Dance With Me All Night

2009-12-10T22:53:00.000-08:00

Crazy, busy insane week. Working on finals and the last week of classes, getting ready for New Jersey (though i'll probably end up packing the night before/morning of), and the most amazing night at Congressman Bermen's party.

Top 10 Songs of Bands That Broke Up Or Died (before i saw them live)

10. Gone - Ben Folds Five

9. I'm Just a Killer for Your Love - Blur

8. Zombie - The Cranberries

7. Paid Vacation Time - At the Drive-In

6. Lemon Parade- Tonic

5. Here Comes the Sun - The Beatles

4. Tell Me Where It Hurts - Garbage

3. Pack It Up - Jawbreaker

2.In the Aeroplane Over the Sea

1. Billy Jean - Michael Jackson

clearing out some of the pictures i've had in my photobucket for ages

Doing things in secret just makes them so much more fun

2009-12-02T11:13:00.000-08:00

Like how i'm currently writing this in my Foreign Policy class. Completely ignoring people's comments and debates, guys who have beards with creepy stares, sometimes looking at the cute guy in class, internally pondering what you're missing and if it will be on the exam. But you're a rebel. Congratulations for being the smart one to bring your computer to class. Everyone without a computer is envious of you because they wish they could avoid this chaos/debate like you. So for me...

#98 - Using Your Computer in Class

You know you do it. And if you don't, you know you want to do it.

#97 - Using Your Car as Your Personal Music Studio

You crank up the tunes. Wind down the windows. Put in your favorite cd and belt it out. It's as though your car is your own personal music studio. Nobody can her you... and sure... you might feel awkward when you catch another person's gaze, but hey, they've probably done it 100 times too. And if anything, just think of the benefits.

Relieving stress, especially in traffic
honing in on your musical and singing talents.
giving people something more interesting to look at rather than the monotonous hum drum starers.

So if you've ever joined the ranks of fellow drivers and singers, then i applaud you. We should road trip it sometime. I'll bring the tunes if you bring the snacks.

Top 10 Songs About Road Trips

The Calendar Hung Itself - Bright Eyes
Twenty Years - Augustana
Night Drive - The All American Rejects
Movie Script Ending - Death Cab for Cutie
Road Trippin' - Red Hot Chilli Peppers
The Way - Fastball
Rental Car - Beck
Chicago - Sufjan Stevens
Cities - Talking Heads
Fast Car - Tracy Chapman

Some Days, I Just Have Commitment Issues To Everything... Even My Regular Morning Coffee

2009-11-25T23:24:00.000-08:00

so on top of doing a top ten list in music i want to add 2 of my awesome things a week, until i reach 100, thanks to the website 1000awesomethings.com . Some of the things the author comes up with are hilarious and others you just think 'that's so true!' So here goes...

100. When itunes set to random picks the BEST music for what you're feeling

come on. Have you ever had a day where you wake up and you just need to get going so you turn on itunes and it picks the best mix of songs to get you going? or maybe you're feeling a little lonely and the music just makes you feel not so lonely because there are artists who have been there and written songs about it. If not, well you need to seriously reconsider your itunes library, because you just must not have a wide selection (or maybe tooooooo wide)

99. You forgot your laptop charger and you have enough battery left to finish up what you were doing

You're in class taking notes and you realize you only have 25% battery left. Or you took your laptop to a friends house and you're playing music but you see you're battery is going to die soon. Sometimes you run into luck and you have just enough to make it through the class or until you leave your friends (although sometimes you may have to dim the screen lighting and quit a few 'excessive apps). But either way, you feel like you made it. Kudos to you. Just don't forget the plug next time

Top 10 Songs of 90's rock/alternative

10. Fahrenheit - At the Drive-In - 1997

9. I'm Just a Killer for Your Love - Blur - 1997

8. The Sound of Fear - The Eels - 1999

7. Fast As You Can - Fiona Apple - 1999

6. My Hero - The Foo Fighters - 1997

5. Stupid Girl - Garbage - 1995

4. Red Letter Day - The Get Up Kids - 1999

3. Thinking, Thats All - Jimmy Eat World - 1996

2. Slide Away - Oasis - 1999

1. Tonight, Tonight - The Smashing Pumpkins - 1995

Top 10 Songs of 90's Indie/ soft rock

10. bend to squares - death cab for cutie - 1999

9. complicated shadows - elvis costello - 1996

8. wonderwall - oasis - 1995

7. You Won't Be Seeing Me Again - Piebald - 1999

6. Scar Tissue- Red Hot Chilli Peppers - 1999

5. Every Shining Time You Arrive - Sunny Day Real Estate - 1999

4. Lemon Parade - Tonic - 1996

3. The Freshman - The Verve Pipe - 1996

2. God Don't Make Lonely Girls - The Wallflowers - 1996

1. Say It Ain't So - Weezer - 1994

After this move, I've decided to only take clothes and books the next time I move

2009-11-21T21:17:00.000-08:00

Writing a take home exam and i'm bored out of my mind and have an odd feeling of hopelessness coming over me. Also listening to the Styrofoam remix of Drugs Or Me by Jimmy Eat World and I think I like it more than the original. And I really do love the original. *This brown sweater is really itchy* So i found this list on someones facebook and decided to try it and take my mind off the exam.

- OK, here are the rules. Test your memory and your love of live music by listing 50 artists or bands (or as many as you can remember) you've seen in concert. List the first 50 acts that come into your head. An act you saw at a festival and opening acts count, but only if you can't think of 50 other artists. Oh, and list the first concert you ever saw (you can remember that, can’t you)?

Let's see if I can do this...

1. Matchbox Twenty
2. Bad Religion
3. Paramore
4. The Sounds
5. Augustana
6. No Doubt
7. Rob Thomas
8. The Faint
9. Death Cab for Cutie
10. Sunny Day Real Estate
11. Paper Route
12. AFI
13. Dashboard Confessional
14. Jack's Mannequin
15. All Time Low
16. Rose Against
17. My Chemical Romance
18. Taking Back Sunday
19. HoneyHoney
20. Motion City Soundtrack
21. Bayside
22. Jenny Lewis
23. New Found Glory
24. The Starting Line
25. The Audition
26. The Almost
27. Stone Temple Pilot
28. The Wallflowers
29. Moving Units
30. Anberlin
31. Snow Patrol
32. Anna Nalick
33. AutoErotique
34. Tegan and Sara
35. From Autumn to Ashes
36. Mew
37. Imogen Heap
38. The All American Rejects
39. Huntingfield
40. Piebald
41. The Spill Canvas
42. This Providence
43. The After Midnight Project
44. Franz Ferdinand
45. Against Me!
46. Fall Out Boy
47. Dirty Pretty Things
48. LUDO
49. Phoenix
50. Coheed and Cambria

(All Pictures Courtesy of Ryan Russell)

Thanksgiving

2009-11-19T23:22:00.000-08:00

Julia Nunes makes me want to play the melodica

In other news... I am moving out of my current place. IN doing so, I have learned that my collection of books is bordering on enough to fill a few sections of a library.

Really Truly... NO lies there... and maybe enough poli sci books to fill the political science section of a library. i would say borders, but i don't have enough copies of each to really sell them.

It's starting to finally get cold enough to be called winter. Not real winter like you people back east, or even close enough to what people in NZ would call brisk. But cold enough for those os us with Cali blood to say brrrrrr and put away our tank tops, shorts and jandals.

Recommended to me by some Cough (Matthew Gray Gubler)Cough

http://www.27bslash6.com/matthewsparty.html

So crunch time is approaching us all. Finals in less than a month. Thanksgiving less than a week away. Christmas like 5 weeks away. Vacations, trips, holiday gatherings to plan. And i'm just stoked to be back with b.

As corny as it sounds i can't wait to finally do thanksgiving myself and bake all day and cook and create a pretty table set up. Ahh thanksgiving. How i love you

List in Progress (stolen from Rochelle Anne)

2009-11-15T02:19:00.000-08:00

Loved Rochelle's idea for this so I stole it from her blog. 
Mission: Complete 101 preset tasks in a period of 1001 days. Criteria: Tasks must be specific (ie. no ambiguity in the wording) with a result that is either measurable, or clearly defined. Tasks must also be realistic and stretching
Start Date: 15 November 2009
 End Date: 22 August 2012
Key: 
(normal text)- not yet addressed 
italic – in progress
 bold- completed (with date)

Health and Self Improvement
Cook dinner twice a week for 2 months (more than pre-made meals) 
Go vegan again for 6 weeks 
Try cooking/baking 12 recipes from my vegan cookbook 
Yoga 2x a week for 3 months
 Running 2x a week for 6 months 
Try 2 new vegetables each week for 6 weeks 
Train for a marathon in 2012 
Go to the chiropractor once a month for 6 months
Stop clearing my throat for 48 hours straight (to help my vocal chords) 
Make a fruit smoothie for breakfast 3x a week for 6 weeks
Lose 2lbs a month until this end date
Use a nasal rinse every night for 2 weeks
go raw for 1 week

Creativity 
Finish my collage on the wall above my bed (11/20/2009)
Write one poem a month for 12 months 
Play Tennis twice a month for 3 months
Take a photography class 
Make Irish Car Bomb Cupcakes
Take Dance Classes again once a week for 4 months
Crochet a scarf
complete 26things (thanks Rochelle. This looks amazing!)
visit 3 museum’s I’ve never been to
Make Tiramisu
Make bread and butter pudding
Buy a pretty notebook and keep quotes and lyrics in it
Get 1 drum lesson
Have B teach me some basic art skills
create my own list of 100 awesome things
make thanksgiving dinner
make banoffee pie for someone
buy one piece of artwork - 12/25/09

Education/Things to learn

 Relearn French to become fluent 
Take 2 semesters of Arabic 
Learn to increase my typing speed 
Complete a research paper on Islamic/Arab influence on Africa 
Work on a research paper about how the world is becoming less nationalist with growing immigration 
Learn to fishtail braid
  learn to French braid (12/12/2009)
 Improve my handwriting and cursive writing
 Learn to play 2 songs on either the piano or guitar
Master the NY subway system
Learn more about wines
Learn to make a clam shell with my tongue
Read a book on “complete history” of New Zealand
learn to make a martini

 Financial 
Save 15% of each paycheck 
Pay off my credit card 
Open an AIG account  or Ally
learn more about 401Ks
create a monthly spending chart
take out a loan enough to pay for tuition
buy a new iPod
buy an external hard drive
buy a queen/king sized bed

Fashion/Clothes
decide what my ‘style’ of clothes is
own a pair of manolo blahniks
invest in a good pair of riding boots
have a proper bra fitting
buy a cocktail dress

Career 
Find an internship to work at while at grad school 
Find a job to pay for the last 6 months @ CSUN 
Get a part time position or internship in a non-profit organization
Rework my resume (12/5/2009)

Read/Watch 
All of Woody Allen's Movies (Directed and acted in) 
Finish 5 Kafka books
 Finish my book of Emily Dickinson's poetry collection 
The New York Times every morning for 3 weeks straight 
Watch the entire West Wing series 
Reread the Lord of the Ring Trilogy 
Read all of Jane Austin's Novels
 Finish my collection of Edgar Allen Poe's short stories and poems 
Watch all of Alfred Hitchcock’s movies
Read 3 books I own but never read
Finish my Netflix list

Travel
 Prague 
 Morocco 
Seattle 
San Francisco 
Chicago
Tennessee

Personal
 Get one tattoo a year for 3 years
 Move to New York 
Throw a proper cocktail party
Go on a pub crawl
Go to one concert a month for 6 months
Go to church once a month for 6 months
Take my grandmother out to lunch/dinner
Calculate my carbon footprint
See Bright Eyes in concert
Bungee jump
Pay for the “person behind me”
See AFI live again
Have a dinner party
be regressed
consciously compliment someone once a day for 2 weeks
try every drink on my alcohol list
figure out what I want in a relationship
try to make one new friend a month for 6 months
not talk for a whole day to really listen to people
buy fresh magnolia’s
Finish this list of 101 things (11/29/09)

"Men Do Things For Women Without Expecting Sex." "Those Would Be Men Who Just Had Sex"

2009-11-13T22:12:00.001-08:00

Apparently my ability to keep postings only to a thursday have proved poor. But hey you just get more of me and what could be better?

In Honor of my favorite season, i decided to do a top 10 of songs that include the word fall, or autumn, in them. Figure i should do this soon since fall is over in about a month. I have a hard time thinking of top 10 lists, so if you have any suggestions, leave 'em in the comment section and i'll do my best to do a list on it.

Top 10 - Songs with "Fall/Autumn"

10. Fall Children - AFI

Nothing sentimental @ all about this song. Would be pretty cool to play @ your front door though to scare away trick-or-treaters. Maybe i'm just a meany. But this reminds me of AFI and how much i wish they had stayed true to the AFI rather than Blaqk Audio. I love any song in which the rest of the band plays a part as back-up vocals as they have always created a great sense of power, so my kudos to the boys in this song for definitely not being a let down.

9. Watching Me Fall - the Cure

I have the American Psycho remix and it's more techno and dancy than any of the other songs on this list. But you have to love the Cure and everyone has a favorite from them. This one would surprisingly (to others) be mine.

8. Autumn Leaves - Nat King Cole

What makes you swoon more than Nat King Cole crooning. His description of fall is so vivid and the correlation of the seasons with love creates a romantic sense. If anyone should have been a part of the rat pack, it should have been Nat.

7. Autumn Shade - The Vines

I've had this album for longer than i can remember. A lot like the Pinback song in this list, there is an eeriness to it. Maybe it's a recurring theme in songs with the word autumn or fall in them. But The Vines have been around (in my music library) and i'm glad i was finally able to incorporate them into a list.

6. Grand Theft Autumn - Fall Out Boy

Say what you will about Fall Out Boy. I haven't listened to anything after "from under the cork tree" came out but from what i used to listen to them, this was one of my favorite songs. Sure I've developed my musical tastes substantially since my immediately post high school years, but can you ever really forget the songs you used to blast in your car when you finally got your freedom?

5. Sometimes in the Fall -

Dancy, French Pop-py. I think this song would be bettered as a remix but on it's own it does have the ability to stand out in a playlist or itunes library. I always imagine this might be a good song if you were walking around a city on your day off or just minding your own business. Just play it and imagine yourself walking around a busy city. The lyrics kind of explain a feeling you might get from just living life.

4. Every Man I Fall For - Cold War Kids

Fell like there is just something missing from this song but as a local band (Long Beach CA) they're pretty interesting. At about 1:10 the singers voice picks up strength and there is a sense of power that makes the song worth keeping on repeat for a while. Great song to listen to while taking a hot bath on a cold autumn night.

3. Autumn of the Seraphs - Pinback

I'm no "biggest fan" of pinback but i've come to listen to them and enjoy their subtle lyrics to more i listen. I've actually really only been listening to them for about 9 months. But this song has a eeriness about it. Yet a steady beat keeping it alive. I think it actually best encompasses the mood of fall/autumn especially around the halloween.

2. Fall For You - The Whitlams

Probably a band most of you have never heard of. Don't even know if they're still around. This song has a sad romantic tone to it. The singer always has this voice that sounds like he's from Sweden or some European country but actually the band is from Australia. The band as a whole is hit and miss with their songs, but the ones you do find are amazing treasures. Check out "blow up the pokies" if you need another Whitlams suggestion.

1. November - Azure Ray

Although technically there is no fall/autumn in the song title, November is a month in autumn/fall so i'm going to count it as one. Azure ray is one of those bands that becomes a favorite pretty soon after you start listening to them. Her voice is so amazing and sincere and the song reminds me of a verbal diary entry or a letter.

I Found Some Hate For You Just For Show, You Found Some Love For Me, Thinking I'd Go

2009-11-13T01:49:00.000-08:00

Places to Visit

Milford Sound - New Zealand

Moscow - Russia

Morocco

Prague - Czech Republic

Bordeaux - France

Kenya

And lastly my favorite place in the world... Whangamata - New Zealand (one place on this list i have been)

Love is a brittle madness, sing about it in all my sadness and I'm falsified to say that i've found god

2009-11-10T22:05:00.000-08:00

Paramore show last night at the Palladium was fucking fantastic and the craziest pit i've ever been in. They played Careful, Caught Myself and Conspiracy (all C's) which really made my night. I'm sure i can find the set list somewhere online and maybe i'll post it later.

"One Of Those Days" Joshua Radin

"Wait right here",
Is all she said to me
And so right here I stay

Time has reached our home
And I've been left alone
It's carried her away

And everyone keeps saying,
"Nothing helps but time"
Time is all I own

And time won't stop replaying
Over in my mind
I watch the hours slow down

So I crawl underneath my blanket
Where I can hide away, I know I can't take it
'Cause I see now, it's just one of those days

Now a year has passed
Alone I stay inside
And I await the rain

To wash away your face
So I don't have to hide
The sight of you is painful

So I crawl underneath my blanket
Where I can hide away, I know I can't take it anymore
'Cause I see now, it's just one of those days

And I can't stop seeing your face
I can't stop seeing your face every place

So I crawl underneath my blanket
Where I can hide away, I know I can't take it anymore
'Cause I see now, it's just one of those days
Yeah

mixing things up by putting the song lyrics first... or at-least BEFORE the actually blogging part of the blog. I exercised my domestic goddess ability (because i only have one) of baking tonight. I had a bag of white chocolate chips and baking goods but no idea what to make. Actually i had wanted to make cupcakes but i didn't have the vanilla and nothing for frosting and not enough butter.

Also decided to make this blog a Thursday blog. So every Thursday there will be a new one of these. Hopefully this will keep me from updating too regularly and not updating enough.

For the interesting websites section of the week:

SSWestern - Been following this for quite some time. Run by my good friend Ali Showkati. If you're into comics or just like having the once a week updated websites with a story this is for you. There is a content advisory for the site but i do assume that you all have the ability to discern for yourself whats acceptable and not. It's a web comic based on a film screen play he's been working on. Enjoy

For you bakers/chefs/creative types, this website is called smittenkitchen and i've been dying to try making they're irish car bomb cupcakes. I've been saying this for forever but i jsut never have the time or ingredients. (i don't often buy Guinness unless i could substitute Steinlager for it)

ok well thats all i got for now... g'night

I'm Far Gone But Your Long Distance Call and Your Capital Letters Keep Me Asking For More

2009-11-05T20:25:00.001-08:00

My lack of studying is most likely due to the fact that i took one night off. And now i'm getting into a groove of not studying. NOT good, but i promise to get back into the swing of things tomorrow.

decided to create a few top lists... eventually i'll have enough time to have picked my top 100 favorite songs list. But for the present i'm leaving you with a few top 10. PLEASE feel free to comment a list of your favorites or maybe what lists you would like to see in the future.

Top 10 Favorite Cover Songs

10. Across the Universe - Fiona Apple

9. Mad World - Gary Jules

8. Heartless - The Fray

7. Smile Like You Mean It - Tally Hall

6. Jack the Ripper - AFI

5. Killing Me Softly - The Fugees

4. Love's Not a Competition But I'm Winning - Paramore

3. Africa - Howie Day

2. Gone - Julia Nunes

1. Long Distance Call - Paramore

Top 10 Favorite Songs with a foreign language title (this one was really hard)

10. Proxima Centauri - At The Drive-In

9. Fin - Anberlin

8. Ne Me Quitter Pas - Regina Spektor

7. Petit Papa Noel - Josh Groban

6. La Sirena - Feist

5. Viva la Vida - Coldplay

4. Volare - Dean Martin

3.Michelle - The Beatles (this one counts for like 1/2)

2. C'est si bon - Eartha Kitt (french)

1. Per Te- Josh Groban (italian)

in the likeness of great websites such as postsecretsfromyomama.com i present, People of Public Transit recommended to me by tanybrown (please click photos for link to site)

As i have tried to make this blog a little more informative of other things going on in cyber world... i present to you (two presentations in one blog... you should all feel so lucky) Miss. Rochelle Anne

she posts many more pictures than me, so maybe you'll be slightly more entertained by her blogs. But that doesn't mean you can desert me!!

Anyway enjoy... and here is a new song i recommend you all to listen to... i can't find the lyrics but the song is awfully pretty. It's called "You're my lover now" by Pieta Brown. I heard her on KCRW's top tune of the day. They're the people that do morning becomes eclectic and all that jazz. I get their podcasts for free on itunes so check it out and download then daily if you can. You won't be sorry.

BTW i think that picture is of zooey deschanel... but not positive. knowing rochelle though it is

~ Eerie-n

I could follow you to the beginning just to relive the start and maybe then we'll remember to slow down

2009-11-02T23:30:00.000-08:00

late night post. Say hullo. Really wish i had a day to just sleep in, kick back, head to sprinkles, go for a run. Find time for more than just the movies i can fit in while writing an essay or studying for a midterm. Currently watching Saw V. Its a little ehhhhh but i feel like now that i've started i've gotta finish it.

One armed scissor. Its not going to get you very far when trying to cut paper... but it does make for a great song by At The Drive-In... found an AP article in a previous edition and they did interviews with musicians (like anberlin, paramore, AFI, taking back sunday) to get their view and opinions on former bands. Really good. The article on AFI this month only reaffirmed my belief that AFI has become a 'DAVEY HAVOC' rather than 4 dudes in a band. The pictures only further my belief by showing only close ups of Davey. Nothing against Davey, but i would love to be able to buy a magazine and rip out a whole page with a picture of just Adam. Whoever said Drummers are the most unseen in a band might have been right, but it doesn't mean that off the stage they deserve to be treated the same way.

Planning on buying more DVDs in the future to actually start a library. Only own maybe 10 DVDs right now. What i want most currently is the whole criminal minds series and all of Wes Anderson's films. Right now i currently only own The Royal Tennenbaums but i think it's my favorite one so far. Can't wait to get around to seeing the Fantastic Mr. Fox. So excited.

Speaking of excited, of course i'm stoked for New Jersey in 6 weeks. I'll be so happy school is over that i probably won't care if all we do is spend all day in bed while it's snowing outside and we only crawl out of bed for food (unless it's being served to us... i'll totally settle for that) But also about new jersey i really really really want another tattoo. like INSANELY badly. So i was looking up pictures and i found this one. Wasn't intentionally even looking for tattoos. I just thought it looked really pretty. And speaking of pictures i really love the one at the beginning of the post. If i could be brave enough again and lose like 30 lbs i would love to cut my hair like that again. So pretty. But the mug is also fabulous.

Well speaking of hair i finally got around to recolouring my hair after two months of avoiding going to get my roots redone. This picture looks really corny right now... but the fact that the picture includes my dearest Adam Carson makes this picture serve a dual purpose.

my throat is somewhat sore currently so i'm working on pumping down the hot tea with honey and avoiding all people with coughs or the swine flu. CANNOT afford to get sick YET again this semester. This is the most i've been sick in a semester. But what would instantly make me feel better is if i could be drinking my tea from this...

YOU KNOW YOU WANT IT

Cold Hands - AFI

How I regret what I must do but you've left me no choice.
Though I still strain I can't recall the beauty of your fey voice.
Now that I've heard come through the walls a song I've heard many times
I must return all you gave me in the company of swine.
We had found sacred ground you burnt down.

I thought you sang so tastefully but now I see I was wrong.
Your serenade turns to filth when I leave so, please, cut the love song.

How I regret what I must do but you must be replaced
For I cannot go on suffering such simple and common tastes.
When you met my eyes you sang to me of passion, pain and will.
When I blinked you turned away to kiss the hand of filth.
You had found sacred ground I'll burn down

Tell me who will hear your voice, your song,
When the smoke has cleared and the lights are gone?
Tell me, who appears when I'm gone.

Where We Used To Play - AFI

I might seem a bit peculiar
A bit not right
For though I try, I remain a stranger not of this time.

I swear I'm almost there
Though I've been wandering for days.
I may be chasing ghost trains hoping they'll arrive
Where we used to play.
I may be hopping ghost trains for they terminate
Where we used to play in those days.

I know I'm with strangers I recognize and I realize my own disowned me. Were never mind.

I swear I'm almost there.

This is right where we used to play.

I may be chasing ghost trains hoping they'll arrive
Where we used to play.
I may be hopping ghost trains for they terminate
Where we used to play in those days.

I never will let it go until I find the place I called mine.
I never was truly meant for this time.

I really want a mcflurry right now... snickers or m&m though?

2009-10-16T22:02:00.000-07:00

Finally cleaned my laptop screen for the first time since... i cant remember. i swear i do luv my macbook... i just sometimes have a hard time showing it. Found out what a Monte Cristo sandwich is for the first time tonight. NOT what i expected. It's a 5 layer sandwich (egg bread, ham,egg bread,turkey,egg bread) fried and then cut into 4's. think of it like a meat french toast. ehhh.

Grad schools are stressing THE FUCK outta me. You have no idea. I feel like NONE of the schools i'll be applying to will accept me. There are even some i'm not applying to because i don't come anywhere close to the requirements. I feel like i failed myself those first 3 years @ moorpark. But who knows, maybe if i don't get in anywhere i'll take 2 years off and take some classes because i'll be more motivated and put some money aside.

i'll be in NYC/NJ in 2 month time. Thank god. I feel like something needs to go right, not that i deserve it, but if something could go right, i might not be so tense and feeling like my world is about to fall apart.

99.99999% of the time i would say i could care less about the killers. personally i have nothing for them and nothing against them. But there is one song i have a slight obsession for: Under the Gun. not sure why it's so catchy and hopefully you all don't think i've sold out my musical taste. i really haven't. i stumbled upon this song after b gave me her itunes library and i kinda got hooked.

She's got her halo and wings
Hidden under his eyes
But she's an angel for sure
She just can't stop telling lies
But it's too late for his love
Already caught in a trap
His angel's kiss was a joke
And she is not coming back

Because heaven sends and heaven takes
Crashing cars in his brain
Keep him tied up to a dream
And only she can set him free
And then he says to me

Kill me now, kill me now, kill me now, kill me now
Kill me now, kill me now, kill me now, kill me now

Yeah she's got a criminal mind
He's got a reason to pray
His life is under the gun
He's got to hold every day

Now he just wants to wake up
Yeah, just to prove it's a dream
Cause she's an angel for sure
But that remains to be seen

Because heaven sends and heaven takes
Crashing cars in his brain
Keep him tied up to a dream
And only she can set him free
And then he says to me

Kill me now, kill me now, kill me now, kill me now
Kill me now, kill me now, kill me now, kill me now

Stupid on the streets of London
James Dean in the rain
Without her it's not the same
The same, the same, but it's alright

Because heaven sends and heaven takes
Crashing cars in his brain
Keep him tied up to a dream
And only she can set him free
And then he says to me

Kill me now, kill me now, kill me now, kill me now
Kill me now, kill me now, kill me now, kill me now
Again and again

no pictures tonight... to much studying and stressing to get back to. ughhh... next time though i promise. Now onto getting me that mcflurry...

Change in Every Little Desire, We Were Counting on Forces We Could Not Control

2009-10-11T15:09:00.000-07:00

Getting ready for the GRE's and just studying in general for school. Sunny Day Real Estate show tonight @ the Fonda Music Box. A lot of the shows i'm attending this year are @ venues i haven't been to before. The roxy for augustana for example was the first one for this year and it was a great little venue. Way smaller than i imagined but it made me love it even more. I was supposed to go to the Hollywood Palladium for Paramore about 10 days ago but the show got cancelled due to Hayley's laryngitis. Nonetheless tonight's show is @ the Fonda Music Box and i'm excited to go and see what it's like. Unlike most shows where i get there on time and all that jazz, i'm not in the mood to stand around for opening bands. What happened to the day when it was one opening band and then the main band? it wasn't that long ago, but more and more i'm seeing 2 usually but sometimes 3 opening acts. I love music and hearing new stuff, but sometimes i don't want to stand for 6 hours like i had to @ the Augustana concert. So i'll show up a little bit before SDRE goes on and have a good time in the back. Who says you need to be @ the front to have a good time anyway?

But actually the main reason for this update is to share a few of my favorite things which i have recieved in the mail this week.

1. recieved a few things from New Zealand

best candy ever? possibly...if you exclude anything with chocolate of course

2. If you're a movie lover, and if you're a friend of mine you had better have seen and atleast appreciate, if not LOVE , this movie...

Wes Anderson is one of the 4 or 5 directors i can never tire of. The other directors on this list are Alfred Hitchcock and Woody Allen. But i'm also leaving a little wiggle room in case i find another director i can feel the urge to rewatch again.

Okay, so off to more studying and eventual suicide. Want to eventually find the time to create a top 100 favorite songs list. Probably won't get done until my 5 1/2 hour flight to New Jersey, but we'll see.

And All The Best Lies, They Are Told With Fingers Tied

2009-09-27T22:08:00.000-07:00

Quick Update before i head off to bed. I ALWAYS say it's been forever since i updated. Mainly because i only remember to update WHEN i just posted and i'm not a fan of updating every 10 min. Pretty sure we would run out of things to write/ and read. BUT i do have to say that they day i have spent most of the year waiting for has just about peaked.

on sept 29 Brand New Eyes and Crash Love by paramore and AFI are out. Since i preordered them i'm getting them a couple days early. And i have spent all weekend listening to Brand New Eyes by paramore. and let me say, THEY HAVE BLOWN MY MIND. If you don't like paramore before now, fine. But if i request one thing of you it's that you listen to Careful. It has totally changed my view on Paramore, as a band and for the better. I can't believe what went into all this. I feel like i was so much a part of the recording process that there are little parts of me in there. like Oh yeah the night Hayley came into the chat and gave us some lyrics for Brick by Boring Brick or the video chat while they were recording in Calabasas.So it's got me pumped. Finally running on my 'runs' and driving around while blasting music has returned to my life. I think i might go driving around for about an hour tomorrow night and just really let the lyrics sink in. They have so much meaning to them it's mind blowing. Hopefully i can say the same for the AFI record when i get it. It was shipped last week, so maybe tomorrow.

FINALLY also finished season 4 of Criminal Minds and watched the first episode of season 5. MGGubler is love. Seriously. I' a dork. But i love him, Mum keeps reminding me he lives with his gf, who is a model. But i can see past that, for now. Season finale for 4 WAS AMAZING. season 5 opener, was...well... a little dissappointing. And a little confusing @ the beginning. But watch it and maybe you'll understand. Also i finally feel MGGubler needs to cut his hair. Atleast trim it. But speaking of season premieres, i caught the premiere of the big bang theory. It's quickly becoming one of my favorite shows. Makes me happy and Cooper greatly reminds me of my brother, in looks.

Ok 15 percent battery life left. LETS DO THIS! ha ha i'm leaving you with the lyrics to my favorite song off of Brand New Eyes. And i'm SOOOOOOO excited for the show on Thursday. LETS DOUBLE DO THIS!!! ha ha so stoked. Oh also NEW PHONE. um pretty cool. Was actually pretty disappointed with the kind of phones that were available @ t-mobile but whatever. Um it's a Gravity 2. Finally i have a full keyboard. T-9 was driving me insane. that's the reason i decided on this one instead of the other samsung sleek phone.

I need to get my hair done, write this paper for my national defense class, and finish studying and prepping for the GRE. Well it's a busy October. So I'm out. Night <3

I settled down
And twisted up from
Disguised as a smile, well
You would have never known

I had it all
But, not what I wanted
Cause over me
Was a place uncharted
and over grown

You'd make your way in
I'd resist you just like this

You can't tell me to feel
The truth never set me free
So, I did it myself

You can't be too careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you
Won't come any closer
You've got to reach a little more
More
More
More, more

Open your eyes
Like I opened mine
It's only the real world.
Like you will never will know

Shifting your weight
To throw off the pain
Well you can ignore it
But only for so long

You look like I did
You resist me just like this

You can't tell me to heal
And it hurts remembering
How it felt to shut down

You can't be too careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you
Won't come any closer
You've got to reach a little more
More
More
More, more

The truth never set me free
The truth never set me free
The truth never set me free
So, I'll do it myself

You can't be too careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you
Won't come any closer
You've got to reach out

Can't be too careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you
Won't come any closer
You've got to reach out
More
More
More
More, more

The Talking leads to touching, the touching leads to sex, and then there is no mystery left

2009-07-23T23:45:00.000-07:00

that's right. the key to life is mystery. according to rilo kiley.

decided that tonights update should be just as entertaining as every other post of mine. so be prepared for a snoozer!!! jk

A. AMAZING website full of really cool artwork by Matthew Gray Gubler. He's pretty talented and i suggest you all check it out. and then tell me how amazing he is.

http://www.matthewgraygubler.com/

B. decided that i needed something i could put my free time into (rather than just sleeping or watching movies) so i've started a collage of quotations and pictures and art above my bed. Just started it last night but it's coming together. I've used a lot of the pages of my old literature book and a lot of quotes from the openers and closers of criminal minds. It's a work in progress but here's a sneak peek.

So school starts back up soon and strangely i couldn't be more excited. I'm so over this working schedule and the hassle of just getting one day off. Had sprinkles today and i got there on a tuesday (FINALLY) when they make the orange flavor. So happy, but i also got the lemon coconut cupcake and it surprisingly turned out to be my favorite. I LUV SPRINKLES!! in fact i just love cupcakes in general. And they were eaten so fast i didn't get a chance to share a lovely picture of them with you all. Though i did save one cupcake (a strawberry) which i was going to give to Ali when we hug out tonight, but ended up spending the night at the beach with Brandon, so we split it. He leaves for Hong Kong at the end of the month. I'm going to miss him. And his ability to find random shit for us to do.

Ok. It's late. That's all you people get.

Loads of <3

ERIN!!

If you're going to have a GARBAGE cover band, you should name it TRASH

2009-07-11T12:03:00.000-07:00

Apparently i'm not the only one who didn't know that the library on campus doesn't open till 1 pm. during the summer of course.

In Case You Haven't Heard, Brand New Eyes and Crash Love Will Be Realesed Sept 29th! So that means Paramore and AFI finally got on the same page and in my honor and to save my sanity,they're releasing albums on the same day. Not saving my sanity would be touring at different venues on the same day when i want to go see them.

Partially in honor of this news, partially in honor of me meeting this hella cool dude, and the next partially because i thought you all might want to follow a funny interesting blog. follow mr. hunter burgan. you won't regret it.

http://tranquilmammoth.blogspot.com/

So in other news I did make it to the Death Cab for Cutie concert on the 5th of July. AMAZING. Made friends with a girl named Bev who lives in Berkeley and interns for the manager of Death Cab. Woo hoo. Most exciting part of the night though was the HUNTER GURGAN was not only there BUT sat RIGHT in front of me!!! ha ha and i was only just hoping to maybe see him somewhere in the crowd of 17,000 people. He was actually really cool about me coming up to him and asking for his autograph FML that i didn't bring my camera. I KNEW i should have but i had no new batteries to put in it. Oh well. I was surprised though that only i asked him for his autograph and one guy asked him for a picture when he went to go get popcorn. Did nobody recognize him?

so i'm actually just on the internet being bored WAITING for someone to drop this proseminar class so i can sign up for it. I hate trying to add classes the first day of school.

I am also deciding to go back to veganism. Its a little weird right now because i haven't gone shopping for vegan food yet so i'm just clearing out my cabinets of what i do have to eat that is vegan. the rest is donated to the hungry roommate foundation. I'm mainly doing it for health reasons. I find i eat healthier and feel better when i'm vegan. Like today i've already had my protein and a few fruit. Anyone know of some good vegan meals or recipes?

Got to meet with Bob Blumenfield yesterday. Don't know why i was so excited about it, but it was pretty exciting. He's really nice really down to earth and talking to him made you realize why you intern for him. it's just a great experience to work for someone who feels the same way as you about certain issues such as IHHS.

Stay sweet and don't eat meat

~ Erin

Dear Omaha, NE... you produce some of the most amazing musical influences

2009-06-25T19:05:00.001-07:00

LLLLLLLLOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGG Ass time since the last post. It is totally my fault. I had planned on updating while recovering from my tonsillectomy, but i was in so much to even move rather than figure out how to hook my laptop to my parents internet and type and load... etc. So in short, the tonsillectomy went well but the recovery was a bitch. I was in so much pain i wondered if it would have been better for me to just live with my problematic tonsils. In the end everything seems to be better. Except now it really hurts to sneeze if i try to hold it in.

So also, school is over and i work MORE than full time. Enough full time to the point where my only free day is saturday. It's then spent doing stuff i never got done the rest of the week. And I STILL have to remember to call my doctor's for appts. I keep only remember AFTER they're closed. But I definitely enjoy being busy rather than spending so much time just sleeping and doing nothing really with my life. But I think it would be nice if i had time to go spend my pay check on things more than just food and necessities. I do spend my saturday mornings though at a local south african pub in Van Nuys called Springbok. I'm one of like 5 women and probably one of 3 people under 40. ha ha but we all gather to watch Rugby and to be honest it's so amazing and it's really fun. Actually WORTH getting up earlier than the rest of the week just to be there. Breakfast there is ok.. nothing amazing... just egg, bacon, tomato and some toast. I do love toast.

I am getting my hair cut and colored on Saturday. Really excited to actually be able to change how i look. Going red with some choppy bangs. I can't wait since i feel like my hair is so unprofessional and i feel like an ugly hobo. So Erin is finally going to stop feeling like a hobo by redoing her hair and working out more and eating healthier. I want to really feel great about myself. and right now i don't... so yeah... gotta change that. Started doing Yoga nad swiming exercises every day... ha ha watch out bitches cuz here i come.

but in other news... music news to be exact... SUNNY DAY REAL ESTATE is getting back together to do a tour... BUT NOT TO BE OUTDONE...

PARAMORE has announced the new album and album artwork and track list... Seems to me like they have matured quite a bit. Album artwork is a torn butterfly and the album is called brand new eyes. sound pretty interesting to me. Can't wait to hear it... oh and since my b-day is in 1 week, you can just pre-order the album for me on july 7th and i would love you forever...and ever

The tracklist for brand new eyes is as follows:

TRACKLIST:
1. Careful
2. Ignorance
3. Playing God
4. Brick by Boring Brick
5. Turn It Off
6. The Only Exception
7. Feeling Sorry
8. Looking Up
9. Where the Lines Overlap
10. Misguided Ghosts
11. All I Wanted

ummm i wanted to have some pictures for you all... but sadly i have none... Next time... i promise

And the grave that you refuse to leave, the refuge that you've built to flee, the places that you've come to fear the most

2009-05-06T00:12:00.000-07:00

Today i received my MAY 2009 catalog from Anthrolpologie. And i was looking through it and i couldn't help but be totally awed by the photography for this catalog. The whole use of water with only part of the models face was so cool... and so eery but so wowing... making me wish i had the ability to make pictures like this... anyway i got a few pics for you enjoyment.

I recently stumbled onto a website that had a link to a blog about the top 5 best blogs by models... believe it or not, their actually pretty good. My favorite is this one

http://ohsococo.blogspot.com/

So although i really should probably be getting ready for my finals next week... i spent most of today after class just watching How I Met Your Mother on DVD. I luv netflix for making the fact that i don't have cable so much easier to deal with. I'm one dvd short of finishing season 2. Woo YEAH!!!

Almost forgot the mention, the countdown till tonsils are removed... 2 weeks and 3 days!!! go me!!

O Valencia! The Decemberists

You belong to the gang
And you say you can't break away
But I'm here with my hands on my heart

Our families can't agree
I'm your brother's sworn enemy
But I'll shout out my love to the stars

So wait for the stone on your window, your window
Wait by the car and we'll go, we'll go

When first we laid eyes
I swore to no compromise
'Til I felt my caress on your skin

Well, how soon we were betrayed
Your sister gave us away
And your father came all unhinged

So wait for the stone on your window, your window
Wait by the car and we'll go, we'll go

Oh Valencia
With your blood still warm on the ground
Valencia
And I swear to the stars
I'll burn this whole city down

All I heard was a shout
Of your brother calling me out
And you ran like a fool to my side

Well the shot, it hit hard
And your frame went limp in my arms
And the lull of love was your dying cry

So wait for the stone on your window, your window
Wait by the car and we'll, go we'll go

Oh Valencia
With your blood still warm on the ground
Valencia
And I'll burn this whole city down
Valencia
With your blood still warm on the ground
Valencia
And I swear to the stars
I'll burn this whole city down

Because It's The Week Before Finals

2009-05-04T14:45:00.000-07:00

And about half of my roommates are pulling all nighters. ha ha it's quite amazing to finally be a part of a house that is college orientated with everyone eating really crapy food and staying up late texting, taking breaks to do yoga, and then complaining about how much more time we're going to have to spend working on projects and studying. ha ha

So this is the last week of class. FINALLY. i'm so burnt out mentally and i don't know how i'm going to cram all this knowledge into 2 days of exam without writing something for one class that really belongs on the essay of another. So I have a very booked week of classes and study sessions with Marjorie who is in 3 of my classes. The only final i'm actually a little worried about is my italian culture final. So not going to be ready for that one. I should probably order the DVD now to watch. Ok back. i did it.

So i just realized as i'm putting a frozen pizza in the oven that this house hasn't ordered pizza in forever. what's up with that? ha ha i think it's because we're all too broke. I really need to find a job soon. I think i might want to work at See's candy.

But the highlight of my weekend was Saturday. Maria needed ruined clothes for a project so we went and raided anthony's wardrobe. We ended up finding a ton of flannel shirts that have never been worn and even still have the tags on. When he tried them on they no longer fit, so he gave them all to us. I am finally the proud owner of some flannel... hell's to the yeah, bitches!! a green/brown one and a red/blue one. I'm in heaven. And then we went out for sushi and went to go see wolverine. I think it was a bit hyped up but still a really good movie.

hah a ok so a random picture of me in flannel...

and lastly a good song... Love's Not A Competition (But I'm Winning) - The Kaiser Chiefs

I won't be the one to disappoint you anymore,
I know, I've said all this and that you've heard
It all before,
The trick is getting you to think that all this was your idea.
And that this was everything you've ever wanted out of here,
Love's not a competition but I'm winning.
I'm not sure what's truly altruistic anymore,
When every good thing that I do is listed and you're keeping score,
Love's not a competition but I'm winning
Love's not a competition but I'm winning
At least I thought I was but there's no way of knowing,
At least I thought I was but there's no way of knowing,
You know what it's like when you're new to the game but I'm not,
I won't be the one to disappoint you,
I won't be the one to disappoint you anymore

Because the wind is high, it blows my mind

2009-05-01T00:58:00.000-07:00

Hullo all. Very late night post here. But i decided to throw together a very random post together for you guys with pictures, quotes, lyrics, and just fun stuff in general. So enjoy!!!

So first of all the new roommate maria is amazing. We've been getting along REALLY well and have a lot in common. We decided to take a few pics on photobooth for your enjoyment

ha ha she doesn't have a mac but we had fun. i luv how big my glasses look in the last one

so i Italian went by soooo slowly today and i was so bored, so Kristin Kaz ( my new Italian Culture friend) and i spent 75 minutes just commenting on each others status'. here are the good ones...

as you can tell much of our conversations were spent talking about my new favorite website textsfromlastnight.com

it's a website with a whole bunch of random texts that people have sent to friends that are just so funny or taken out of context. it's hilarious. Here are a few excerpts from the website

"Just saw a man jogging. For recreation. At 3am. Who's he training to be, batman?"

"Her body is shaped like a coke bottle...a two liter coke bottle"

"My roommate and I had a nyquil contest. The nyquil won."

So paramore has wrapped up the album. No idea to what the title is but a few of the songs will be interesting. here's one quote that was shared with the whole LJ community, so i don't feel bad sharing it with you guys " you don't deserve a point of view, if the only thing you see is you" i dunno, sounded like a deep philosophical type of lyric ( i think it's a lyric)

so unto interesting philosophical debates and questions. We're learning about machiavelli and boethius in Political Philosophy and i love it so much. maybe it's the teacher that makes me love it so much. Nick Dungey is the best poli sci professor i have ever had. Highly recommend him. But actually here is a quote from Nietzsche's "beyond Good and Evil" that i found to like

"The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself."

So i'll try and add some longer excerpts from other reading's i've had this semester when i finally get around to thinking about it.

I'm doing yoga almost religiously and i'm loving it. So much. Really glad Anthony gave me the yoga mat because i really need it. Yoga is never as easy as it looks. But on the topic of body's, Maria and i were talking about tattoo's tonight and i showed her this gorgeous one. It reminds me of the magnolia tree i wanted done in the same way as this one...

So i really like this song and i know Kait loves it because it's her and Jake's song. But i leave you with the lyrics for Shiver by Coldplay

So I look in your direction,
But you pay me no attention, do you?
I know you don't listen to me,
'Cause you say you see straight though me, don't you?

But on and on, from the moment I wake,
To the moment I sleep,
I'll be there by your side,
Just you try and stop me,
I'll be waiting in line,
Just to see if you care.

Oh, oh, oh, oh
Did she want me to change?
Well, I change for good.
And I want you to know,
That you always get your way,
I wanted to say,

Don't you Shiver? Shiver... Shiver...

I'll always be waiting for you,
So you know how much I need ya,
But you never even see me, do you?

And is this my final chance of getting you?

But on and on, from the moment I wake,
To the moment I sleep,
I'll be there by your side,
Just you try and stop me,
I'll be waiting in line,
Just to see if you care.

Oh, oh, oh, oh
Did she want me to change?
Well, I change for good.
And I want you to know,
That you always get your way,
I wanted to say,

Don't you Shiver? Shiver... Shiver...

Sing it loud and clear.
I'll always be waiting for you.

Yeah I'll always be waiting for you.
Yeah I'll always be waiting for you.
Yeah I'll always be waiting for you, for you
I will always be waiting...

And it's you I see, but you don't see me.
And it's you I hear, so loud and so clear.
I sing it loud and clear...
And I'll always be waiting for you

So I look in your direction,
But you pay me no attention,
And you know how much I need ya,
But you never even seen me.

I lied... also leaving with Side by Travis... i had heard it in BK one day and it sounded so familiar because i had listened to it like 6 years ago. I spent about 3 weeks trying to find it and i randomly came across it while looking up songs that had been used for Grey's Anatomy

They all believe there's someone watching over you
They're watching every single thing you say
And when you die
They'll set you down and take you through
They'll realise one day
That the grass is always greener on the other side
The neighbour's got a new car that you wanna drive
And when time is running out you wanna stay alive
We all live under the same sky
We all will live, we all will die
There is no wrong, there is no right
The circle only has one side
We all try hard to live our lives in harmony
For fear of falling swiftly overboard
But life is both a major and minor key
Just open up the chord
But the grass is always greener on the other side
The neighbour's got a new car that you wanna drive
And when time is running out you wanna stay alive
We all live under the same sky
We all will live, we all will die
There is no wrong, there is no right
The circle only has one side

And LASTLY - please follow me on Twitter... thanks a bunch... i'm constantly updating especially when in italian... ha ha

http://twitter.com/motioncityerinn

My Phone Now Has The Same Message Notification Tone as Vespa from Casino Royale

2009-04-17T19:52:00.000-07:00

ha ha yes!!! i'm not exactly sure what kind of phone she had, but i think it's somewhat similar. I now own a blackberry pearl and it makes me happy. I've been playing around with it for about the last 24 hours. It's a second hand one so i had to wipe the memory. But i can't sync it to my mac book and i can't transfer things from my old phone. It makes me sad since all my jenny lewis stuff from the concert is on there.

SPEAKING of Jenny Lewis, she was AMAZING on monday night. I drove all the way to Pomona for it, but it was actually a fairly easy drive and Pomona is way nicer than mum said it would be. They have this area called Antique Row, which is right across the street from the Glass House. I was expecting some huge concert hall, but it only holds no more than 800 people. I walked into this little bookshop across from the glass house before getting in line, and this lady in there has cd's from almost all the artists that have played at the Glass House.

We got to watch this 45 minute film called "welcome to Van Nuys". And it was a documentary on the making on Acid Tongue in 2008. And i had no idea she was from the valley. It made me happy, but i don't now why cuz it's not like i'll be running into her all the time or that she even lives here, ha ha. There was an opening band called DAWES... and they were ok, but i felt really nauseous because i hadn't eaten in a while and had been standing for quite some time. So that might have affected my judgement. I thought their bassist was really good but i couldn't stop looking at the drummer who made the weirdest faces while drumming. Like kids make when something is horribly smelly and i can't even describe it, but his face made me laugh.

But the main point of this is Jenny Lewis. And she was amazing. This is the first time i've seen her in person and she is so cute and lovely and pretty. And very sweet. She did a cover and a mix of songs off of Rabbit Fur Coat and some off of Acid tongue. She also did 2 or 3 from Rilo Kiley which made me excited because it meant she did Silver Lining. And I actually cried during Under the Blacklight. Not for the lyrics but the way she sang it and she explained the story behind it being a friend of hers. She also did You are what you love and that was just enough to make the 2 hour drive to Pomona worth it. I'm trying to recall all the songs she did. It was about 90 minutes she was performing which i would say is a little longer than most acts usually go on for. I only didn't know about 3 songs ( the cover and 2 others)

Acid tongue

Pretty Bird

Next Messiah

Bad Man's World

See Fernando

Godspeed

Carpetbaggers

Trying my best to love you

Jack Killed Mom

Melt you Heart

Rabbit Fur Coat ( she actually forgot the words in the second verse, and ended up skipping to the next verse after a minute. She was embarrassed but it was really cute i thought)

Rise up with fists ( this was part of the encore at the end of the show)

Happy (also encore)

You are what you love

The charging sky

From Rilo Kiley

Silver Lining

Under the Blacklight

anyway... since a Rilo Kiley or Jenny Lewis song would just be expected, i decided to pick...

An Attempt to Tip The Scales - Bright Eyes

Did you expect it all to stop at the wave of your hand?
Like the sun's just going to drop if it's night you demand.
Well, in the dark we're just air so the house might dissolve.
But once we are gone, who's gonna care if we were ever here at all?
Well, summer's going to come, it's gonna cloud our eyes again.
No need to focus when there's nothing that's worth seeing.
So we trade liquor for blood in an attempt to tip the scales.
I think you lost what you loved in that mess of details.
They seemed so important at the time
but now you can't even recall any of the names, faces, or lines.
It's more the feeling of it all.
Well, winter is going to end, I'm going to clean these veins again.
So close to dying that I finally can start living.

I Was Your Silver Lining But Now I'm Gold

2009-04-06T12:39:00.000-07:00

Has anyone ever wondered what it is that defines you? what is it that you base your self esteem of off? I mean you have pretty much 2 options. Either you base yourself off an intrinsic value or you base yourself off of the extrinsic, outside sources and achievements. I've been asking myself this question for a while since in my Political Behavior class this is the great debate between Freud and Neitzsche and Fromm. I've personally come to the conclusion that self value and happiness is based off of an extrinsic source. Part of this is based on the idea that physical activities such as sex or working out provide this euphoric feeling. Along these lines you can use Freud's idea that man is only happy when he is productive or is a producer. People often only feel happy when they have seen that they are productive with their lives and have lives with drive and purpose. Even if they don't like their job, the act of producing money to provide for themselves/ family makes them happy. God created man in his image, and as god being a creator, man must also enjoy the act of creation just as god did. Along the lines of explaining God, I personally view God as an outside force. It is not him that lives in us, rather the holy spirit. Although God has instilled morals and values and a mind inside of each human being, it is not these elements that creates a self worth and value inside of people. Also man is intrinsically evil. This basis provides that the intrinsic self worth of one would not be one of which people would want to base themselves.

So sorry to have randomly opened this blog like that, but it's something i've been thinking about for a while. I do feel that maybe there are elements and views which people may provide to back up why they believe that values are intrinsic. But the idea of an intrinsic and extrinsic value seems to only be a position made by people who see both points but can't choose a side.

But onto new things. Spring break is finally here and i'm so excited. I'm so ready for even more sleeping in, going out with friends, and not being here worrying about roommates. I am on the hunt for a job though. It;s so much harder than i remember it being. It's been over 2 years since i've have to look for a job. Hoping for an office job but i need money soon so i might just end up at target soon ha ha but we'll try to avoid that.

Manhattan - Kings Of Leon

I could dance all night
And some of the day
That's how I play
That's how I play

I say who are you
No matter who you are
So you dance all night
And you dance all day

I say
I say

Gonna build a fire
Gonna smoke it up
Gonna sip this wine
And pass the cup

These avenues and
These reseviors
We gonna show this town
How to kiss these stars

I say
I say

You've come to kill
Gonna spend it high
Your parents grieve
I know they are right

And then talking to you
Well they calm you down
So it's all for you
Who let you down

I say
I say
I say
I say

Just wanna take you hand
I'm gonna drive you home
Just gonna keep on
Keep on, keep on
And you gonna have a rest

You do your best to show me love, but you don't know what love is

2009-04-01T23:00:00.001-07:00

sorry it's been so long since i last updated. really no excuse seeing as i have almost 2 weeks of spring break. but little gets done in my free days when there is nothing to procrastinate against. Maribel has moved out and i am awaiting the arrival of the next roommate. My room looks a little weird being so empty and i would like to fill it, but what would be the point.

But on to bigger and better news. PARAMORE is living somewhere in the San Fernando Valley and i have yet to find them. i'm hoping i find them fairly soon seeing as they're about half way done with recording their next album. And i want so badly to see zac and have some pinkberry with him.

Ahhhh.... not much else going on here... i found that julia nunes can brighten my day no matter how shitty of a day it is. Also i ate the box of chocolates i bought for my mum for her birthday. le sigh... i just wanted choc. ha ha yeah probably not going to help my weight loss. But i am totally stoked to say i've been running everyday and doing yoga. So i feel better about myself. which should be a good sign. Also learned that drinking is really bad during weight loss. So no more drinking. sorry boys and girls.

There really isn't a lot to talk about since i have little to do. i did go get a massage today. but thats not really interesting. i also haven't really talked to chris in a while and i feel like a total slacker cuz i should really be trying a little harder to get a hold of him. anyway. luv you all. and leave me a comment or two if you can.

P.S. the tree of the picture above is what i plan on getting tattooed on my lower left back, with the phrase constants become surreal somehow entwined in it. anyway lots of love.

~ erinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

heart shaped gun - Augustana (i love this song. but they never recorded it for an album. its only available on the flash drive for the live san diego concert)

Sky black and blue
Blue turn to red
I'm in love with you, girl
I might as well be dead

I ain't a fool
And honey you're just a kid
A bottle of wine
And a pack of cigarettes
Your cigarettes

Hey boy you're bleeding for nothing
It's hard to miss when you're shooting a heart shaped gun
You'll slit your skin to find freedom
You'll kill yourself to find anything at all

Lock all the doors
And put the child to rest
Slip on down your skirt, babe
C'mon lower down your dress

'Cause I got the keys
Straight to your heart
I can't afford a ring
And it's tearin you apart
The castle wall's been breached, babe
I'm kissin down your neck
You're just throwin rocks
And slippin into bed

'Cause hey boy you're bleeding for nothing
It's hard to miss when you're shooting a heart shaped gun
You'll slit your skin to find freedom
You'll kill yourself to find anything, find anything at all

Well the money's slow
And the cancer rolls
Gotch your baby due in July
Well if I can fake it
Yeah the cash could take it
Our troubles, our worries, our problems all away

'Cause hey boy you're bleeding for nothing
And it's hard to breathe when you're shooting a heart shaped gun
'Cause you'll slit your skin to find freedom
You'll kill yourself to find anything, find anything at all

Hey boy you're bleeding for nothing
You'll kill yourself to find anything, find anything at all
Anything at all

Anthony is snoring... and this makes me want to take another nap

2009-03-21T17:59:00.001-07:00

Anybody else love the feeling of freshly cut hair? i do... it's one of those things that can brighten my day. I got some chopped off today with Mark (whom i adore, like a second father) and then went with dad to a really hole in the wall tiny sandwich place on Ventura. SOOOOO crowded in there, but i will have to admit that my turkey sandwich was probably the best i've had in a long time, and i was eyeing my dad pastrami. It's a good thing he didn't leave or else i might have been tempted to take it and run (to where i don't know seeing as he was driving)

My phone keeps going off. I'm too lazy to go get it. Which is often the case. I'm just a lazy person in general, if you haven't already figured this out. But in my attempt to not be lazy and be somewhat productive, i did go for a run and am considering baking something, unhealthy, perhaps red velvet cupcakes again? with faux cream cheese frosting. i did find THE WORST red velvet cupcakes on tuesday with marjorie. Some little place near encino called Beau's bakery. The cupcake was more like a dry choc cupcake with runny and almost non existent frosting. I ate it out of obligation since marjorie spent $3 on it.

Anthony and i went to the topanga mall yesterday and i think it was more fun getting there than being there. We screamed and vented and stopped at this place that sells punching bags and pretended to post pictures of the people we're frustrated at on them. We also went by the place that used to be home to the church where my parents were married and then spotted the peruvian restaurant that i've wanted to try for like 10 years. I don't know why i never get around to it. Gotta just get there one day. I'll drag maribel maybe. or marjorie. And i also found out that the topanga mall has some pretty upscale stores stuch as jimmy choo... and tiffany's. I wanted to go into the Jimmy Choo store, but the fact that i would fall in love with a pair of shoes and spend all of my money on a $2000 pair of shoes is what stopped me. Le sigh... being broke sucks sometimes.

Oh and check out postcardsfromyomomma.com . you'll be happy you stopped by

That Crest pro health toothpaste left a funny taste in my mouth

2009-03-14T22:34:00.000-07:00

not sure if it's supposed to taste like that or not. So i finally got my copy of paper towns by john green. And it's actually pretty fabulous. So far atleast. ha ha i'm only on page 60 though. i took it as a recommendation from someone. most of the books i read are actually recommendations. like the shack, lullaby, paper towns... what else have i forgotten?

I'm supposed to be working on a resume to fax into a lawyer on monday, but i'm too easily distracted and i feel as though doing 2 sets of taxes in a day fulfills any requirements for having a productive and meaningful day. They're time consuming but they're really not as hard as everyone makes them out to be. But maybe that's just me. I've spent all day in my pj's. When i had to go get ice cream i just throw on jeans, and then got home and took them off and just watched Grey's anatomy while eating the ice cream. Wasn't as good as i'd hoped, which is a sign that you should just stick to what you like, rather than trying new mixes at coldstones.

I'm going to see Jenny Lewis on April 13!!! i'm so excited. I really did want to go to coachella but i don't think that's going to happen. I've become obsessed with her and rilo kiley in about the last month and i was really excited that she's actually on tour right now. So i'll be posting one of each. Not much to talk about. Just got to get a somewhat early night for church tomorrow and also be coherent for a family BBQ after that. I've always wondered why my family has never had one of those big family reunions. I mean how often do you get to see family, other than immediate family and maybe grandparents and a few cousins? just a thought.

spring break is in 3 weeks. any ideas on what i should do? i'm strapped for cash and wont have a car... so i'll need realistic options, rather than being drunk 24/7 and completing my entire netflix list. So i also enjoy food but i'll have to be changing what i eat. I'll be on the low carb diet. I'll be a bitch for a while, hopefully eventually a skinny bitch. So consider yourself warned.

you are what you love - Jenny Lewis

This is no great illusion
When I'm with you I'm looking for a ghost
Or invisible reasons
To fall out of love and run screaming from our home

Because we live in a house of mirrors
We see our fears and everything
Our songs, faces, and second hand clothes
But more and more we're suffering
Not nobody, not a thousand beers
Will keep us from feeling so all alone

But you are what you love
And not what loves you back
That's why I'm here on your doorstep
Pleading for you to take me back

The phone is a fine invention
It allows me to talk endlessly to you
About nothing disguising my intentions
Which I'm afraid, my friend, are wildly untrue

It's a sleight of hand, a white soul band
The heart attacks I'm convinced I have
Every morning upon waking
To you I'm a symbol or a monument
Your rite of passage to fufillment
But I'm not yours for the taking

But you are what you love
And not what loves you back
So I guess that's why you keep calling me back

I'm fraudulent, a thief at best
A coward who paints a bullshit canvas
Things that will never happen to me
But at arms length, it's Tim who said
I'm good at it, I've mastered it
Avoiding, avoiding everything

But you are what you love, Tim
And not what loves you back
And I'm in love with illusions
So saw me in half
I'm in love with tricks
So pull another rabbit out of your hat

And if you prefer coffee, well you can go die in a hole

2009-03-06T01:28:00.000-08:00

ha ha charlie, the english guy from Bath on youtube, totally makes being sick a little bit more bearable. So i don't have much to talk about. But i feel the need to update you all a bit, as i stay up until 2 am watching late night with jimmy fallon and finishing "open city", at the same time. It only works because i was only half paying attention to jimmy fallon while reading italian subtitles.

haha so for all of you who don't already know, driving miss brittany is an amazing blog and she's super cute. She drives and talks to you at the same time, which should probably be illegal. ha ha so check her out for me. you'll love her. i promise

http://drivingmissbrittany.blogspot.com/2009/03/slacker.html

So it's been oddly cold here lately. i'm so cold for being a california girl and it's a little sad really because as i moan and complain about it to my other friends, they laugh, roll their eyes, and say "yeah well it was 9 F here today". But it's been raining here a bit lately and i finally found THE BEST spot in the house after living here for 7 months. ha ha. There are some couches in out study room and i just sit in the corner with some blankets and nobody ever goes in there so it's like my own little haven.

so i'm watchng this little documentary thing on Robert Francis. and he seems pretty damn interesting. so i'm going to use him as my lyric musician tonight. he's kinda folksy, but i like it actually. check him out also. woo hoo tonight is like recomendation night or something. ( i couldnt find lyrics to the song one by one, so little girl is the substitute)

ha ha oh btw i must say how stoked i am for the NO DOUBT tour!!! i bought my tickets for bakersfield with Paramore and The Sounds. The last 2 are pretty much the reason i'm going. I spent $186.05 on 2 tickets. EEEEEKKK!!! but so worth it... hopefully. Also i found out it is possible to rent a car if you're under 25. You just need to use a certain rental agency. Enterprise does it.

Little Girl - Robert Francis

You said you want to be outside and you want to feel alive
I said I didnt want to move I just wanted to survive
So I sit here waiting for the sun to come
And I watched it rise like wed never done

I want to kill myself just to kill all the pain
But then youd know youd feel like youre the one to blame
You were just too young and just too smart
Probably the best candidate for a broken heart

Rock and roll my little girl
Rock and roll in your big big world

Rock and roll my little girl
Rock and roll in your big big world

In a drunken state I call your name
From the bottom of my soul to the blood in my veins
Those days in the car when I couldnt pull through
You sang to me and all I wanted was you

I cant seem to do anything right anymore
How the days are so long and the nights are a blur
I want you to know that Ill always be the only one there
While you listen to his heartbeat
While he runs his hands through your hair

Rock and roll my little girl
Rock and roll in your big big world

Each day he works past the 9 to 5
Tell me tell me how does he know if youre even still alive
You made a portrait of myself and it made me cry
And through all the tears I lost I looked myself in the eye

What kind of man have I become that I have to let this go
Fate has made a fool of me Ill reap now what I sow
We were just two people alike indignity
Felt the ancient grudge to the mutiny of me

And I guess this is where well end our scene
Where my civil blood leaves my seething hands unclean

Rock and roll my little girl
Rock and roll in your big big world

Running from Lions (metaphorically of course)

2009-03-01T01:05:00.000-08:00

So it's after 1 am and i'm just chillin' in my room for the first time in a long time. My roommate didn't come home tonight so i can just sit in bed or mess around in the room without worrying about her sleeping. Having a granola bar and some wheat thins. yummy yummy yummy.

But for what i thought was a shitty week and what i thought was going to be an even worse weekend, it actually turned out pretty good. I finished house (up to season 4 and let me say that episdoe 15 or the FINALE of season 4 is by far THE BEST EPISODE!!! It's a two parter), worked out a bit, did some reading and reread notes, slept, some food shopping, and talked to John Mielke and HAYLEY WILLIAMS!! ha ha 2 nights in a row. She's been in the chat room's on PFC lately, and she's almost becoming a regular. I'm making some cool friends in there. One of them lives in Australia which is pretty exciting and fun. Also there is always someone in there who'll have the whole chat and can send it to you. so i have tonights chat all down and i'm going to look over it when i get a chance.

But whenever hayley is in the chat room it's like a sea of questions and comments (even though there is only about 30 of us in there at one time) but we talk about anything and everything from bands and movies, to music, to shirt ideas and just random comments and questions. It's just fun to chill in there and everyone acts like its a normal chat room and doesn't create and entire sphere of devoting it to her, which is cool. Jeremy needs to come in at some time though and kick it with us. Hayley even gave us some lyrics to a song called fat hat thats going to be on the new album. See i knew paying $40 a year to be a member would pay off.

so i watched "how to lose friends and alienate people" with simon pegg, kirsten dunst, and megan fox. Sad Sad waste of time. Such as stupid see through movie. I can't believe i wasted my time on it. and it's sad because i kinda like kirsten dunst and really love simon pegg.

The scarf that i have spent so much time on is really coming along. I gave up last night on what i had done and started from scratch. So for about 3 hours last night i just crocheted away while listening to keep fishin by weezer and julia nunes... ha ha and while typing this i got distracted to play the weezer song and then somehow started checking youtube and then eneded up watching college is hard before realizing i was forgetting to type this. check them out.. they're absoutely entertaining an really good for just being college students and learning how to use a camera. I can't wait for this semesters episode to come out. Check them out on youtube @ http://www.youtube.com/user/collegeishardtheshow or you can go to collegeishard.tv. trust me. you won't regret this.

so i've lost the song that i had wanted tp post about 2 days ago... and i know this wasn't it but it will have to do unti l icome across it again... this is called embers and envelopes by MAE.. enjoy

We write to apologize.
We ask to look past life as it goes by.
I know you have sacrificed time,
life, love, time to fly.
Please consider all things trite,
forgiveness will be the thing that gets us by.
I know to have something like this
broken is hard to fix.

(refrain)
Embers, we're burning bridges down.
Oh! Envelopes stuffed with feelings found.
To write this down as means to reconcile.

We write to patch things up,
maybe not to agree but to proclaim love.
Let's look ahead and then we'll see the one
whose glory never ends.
And based on that we'll see,
there'll be room for change, but gradually.
I know to have something like this
broken is hard to fix.

(refrain)
Embers, we're burning bridges down.
Oh! Envelopes stuffed with feelings found.
To write this down as means to reconcile.(x4)

(bridge)
If all is said and done and over,
if we don't have to, we're not gonna.
Make the change, it's worth the try.
What's broken can be fixed tonight.
(refrain plays the same time as the bridge)

Embers, we're burning bridges down.
Oh! Envelopes stuffed with feelings found.
To write this down as means to reconcile.(x2)

I actually just really wanted a reason to post this song...

2009-02-27T10:10:00.000-08:00

so many posts in such a short amount of time... i'm on a role!!! ha ha well i could be far more productive... but i've given myself a free day till 10:30... then it's all business

I made chocolate chip cookies last night because maribel wanted some... they actually turned out amazing since we don't have a mixer... it was all done by hand with the brute strength of my perfectly sculpted arms... ha ha yeah.. tht was a joke to anyone who has seen my arms...

so i really just wanted to post so i could put this song lyric up... i like this song a lot and the video for it is about 20 times cooler... it's all still frame/ still shot... i don't really know what it's called... but i think you get the picture...

update : housemate drama again... they asked me what was my food in the fridge and i think they're planning on throwing out all maribel's stuff... but i really don't want to be a part of this.. can't we just let it go already? i mean she's leaving soon... i hate living with girls

her morning elegance - oren lavie

Sun been down for days
A pretty flower in a vase
A slipper by the fireplace
A cello lying in it's case

Soon she's down the stairs
Her morning elegance she wears
The sound of water makes her dream
Awoken by a cloud of steam
She pours a daydream in a cup
A spoon of sugar sweetens up

And She fights for her life
As she puts on her coat
And she fights for her life on the train
She looks at the rain
As it pours
And she fights for her life
As she goes in a store
With a thought she has caught
By a thread
She pays for the bread
And She goes...
Nobody knows

Sun been down for days
A winter melody she plays
The thunder makes her contemplate
She hears a noise behind the gate
Perhaps a letter with a dove
Perhaps a stranger she could love

And She fights for her life
As she puts on her coat
And she fights for her life on the train
She looks at the rain
As it pours
And she fights for her life
As she goes in a store
With a thought she has caught
By a thread
She pays for the bread
And She goes...
Nobody knows

And She fights for her life
As she puts on her coat
And she fights for her life on the train
She looks at the rain
As it pours
And she fights for her life
Where people are pleasently strange
And counting the change
And She goes...
Nobody knows

Where Love Went Wrong

2009-02-26T19:41:00.000-08:00

So not the best day ever... but it'll all work out... i know it will... i just need to focus on the here and now... and only focus on myself instead of worrying about others and justice...

My Philosophy of Politics class is amazing and my teacher gave us this quote from Einstein who got it probably from Plato "you can not solve the problems you face with the same thinking that created them". So I might not be putting them into action in the right way but i feel like i'm going to do some major overhaul and work on my procrastination and daydreaming and not focusing on things that need to be dealt with right now. So i'm going to work on that and here's another song. Enjoy

pull the ripchord
the ship has lost its sail
your mama's got a new man
your daddy always fails
and you're eating again
at them
'cause nobody loves you

and even fancy things
have finally lost their charm
wine and diamond rings
they never get you anymore
you're sleeping again
alone
'cause nobody loves you

oooh
they should have seen you
should have known you
should have known what it was like
to be you

so come on kid
look at what you did
I don't know if you meant it
but you did yourself in
and I was even having a good day
when I'd found out we lost you

oooh
she said it was in the singing and the strumming
oh man I even saw it coming

Just Don't Tell Me That

2009-02-24T23:47:00.000-08:00

So it's a nice consolation that nobody reads this so i can just vent... say blah.... feel better about the situation and then go on like it didn't happen...

cuz it didn't happen... nothing happened... and me being the hopeless romantic happened... and me wishing i didn't like people i hardly know and hoping and daydreaming about things working out...

i deleted the folder... what was the point? to be able to say "i stalk you" "i need to see you even when i could just look at your facebook pictures"... (yes i understand it's totally creepy. have no fear. i know when i'm going totally mad)

ok so now i can just binge on some chunky monkey and have a busy day tomorrow and push all this to the back of my mind...

Your House - Alanis Morisette

I went to your house
Walked up the stairs
I opened your door without ringing the bell
I walked down the hall
Into your room
Where I could smell you
And I shouldn't be here, without permission
I shouldn't be here

Would you forgive me love
If I danced in your shower
Would you forgive me love
If I laid in your bed
Would you forgive me love
If I stay all afternoon

I took off my clothes
Put on your robe
I went through your drawers
And found your cologne
Went down to the den
Found your CD's
And I played your Joni
And I shouldn't stay long, you might be home soon
I shouldn't stay long

Would you forgive me love
If I danced in your shower
Would you forgive me love
If I laid in your bed
Would you forgive me love
If I stay all afternoon

I burned your incense
I ran a bath
I noticed a letter that sat on your desk
It said "Hello love, I love you so love, meet me at midnight"
And no, it wasn't my writing
I'd better go soon
It wasn't my writing

So forgive me love
If I cry in your shower
So forgive me love
For the salt in your bed
So forgive me love
If I cry all afternoon

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jml0nZ21cm0

I hate having longer legs than my jeans cuz then my socks show

2009-02-09T10:11:00.000-08:00

Anyone who said college is hard... was lying. its the easiest thing ever. Especially when you don't work, so going to school only 2 days a week gives you insanely long weekends and rainy mornings just checking facebook, watching house, and of course reading for classes. But in all honesty. Reading doesn't require much from you except that you need to be able to understand it and apply it.

But in all my boredom i did find time to go to the movies for the first time in months yesterday. My roommate and i had had enough with being stuck inside while it rained and reading our brains out over the hundreds of pages of poli sci books we have to read. I have never been more interested in public policy though. It's actually more interesting than my political ideology class. I've also learned i could never be an acting major, because reading plays drives me insane. I tend to skip lines and then can't figure out who said what, and then just end up having to reread it and wasting EVEN more time...

By the way... my free time is also making way for me to hopefully win tickets to see Kings of Leon in Auckland New Zealand in March (flight tickets are included) through KROQ

Anyway here is the lyrics that i never posted last time...

Running from Lions - All Time Low

Get me out of this place, before I cause more damage,
a small price to pay for building houses out of matchsticks;
and when things get too hot, you've got me to blame for,
every fire that breaks out in every lover's name, so...

...Don't forget, we've got unfinished business,
stories yet to unfold,
tales that must be retold,
and I regret not knowing when to put an end to all this madness,
keeps me wanting,
keeps me wanting more...

Sell me out I'm yesterday's old news,
phrases left on paper,
black ink bleeding through
the pages where we made our history.
Call me foolish,
I feel hopeless...

Like a dear caught in the headlights
I won't know what hit me...
Running from lions,
never felt like such a mistake

...Don't forget, we've got unfinished business,
stories yet to unfold,
tales that must be retold,
and I regret not knowing when to put an end to all this madness,
keeps me wanting,
keeps me wanting more...

The fine line between insane and insecure

2009-02-06T23:10:00.000-08:00

I would love to be able to just waste my life pretending and hope that someday it will happen between us... but i can't because i need to focus on there here and now and think about things of the present. Such as school and getting a job to make money to pay for things i need NOW...

please i need a sign... i'll do anything that tells me that what i'm doing, what i'm working towards, what i'm waiting for... is it right? am i doing the right things?

I'm freaking out. I get claustrophobic being in a class room now. that thought has never crossed my mind before. What's making it change?

Dearly beloved are you listening?

Another Late Night Update

2009-02-03T23:28:00.001-08:00

So disney just sent me an e-mail saying "Couture Family Disney Vacation"... well you know what... those are some pretty fucked up cocky ass bastards right there. I mean what do they know? My whole family could have gone on a cruise and the boat was taken over by pirates of the Thai waters and then sacrificed themselves to save the others. Or what about me not being able to have kids and my husband just walked out on me after telling me he was sleeping with my best friend who i thought had gone into a nunnery? Seriously... how inconsiderate. But in all honesty, i don't care. I don't A. have a family of my own yet. B. my parents and brother have much better ways to spend their money than go to disneyland

So i thought i would update you from the last post that i have also learned that

11. Our postman hates us... atleast 5 times in the 6 months we've lived here he has not even bothered to show up to take our mail. I guess he just assumes if we're not getting any mail, nones going out, so why bother stopping by? i think it's because he's pissed we didn't leave him a little christmas thank-you this year.

12. There are 6 of those loofah scrub things in the girls bathroom. Doesn't add up with there only being 4 girls. Someone either A. thinks they need to wash themselves twice and with separate scrubbers B. they use one to clean their "va jay jay" (in which case i hope mine never touches that one) C. We have some roommates that i've never seen here and definitely aren't paying their own rent.

So yeah... just a little midnight (well almost midnight) snack for all of you little munchkins with insomnia... sucks to be you!!!

The Gromble Romble Fairy (Erin)

Portions for Foxes - Rilo Kiley

There's blood in my mouth 'cause I've been biting my tongue all week
I keep on talkin' trash but I never say anything
And the talkin' leads to touchin'
and the touchin' leads to sex
and then there is no mystery left

And It's bad news
Baby I'm bad news
I'm just bad news, bad news, bad news

I know I'm alone if I'm with or without you
but just bein' around you offers me another form of relief
When the loneliness leads to bad dreams
and the bad dreams lead me to callin' you
and I call you and say "C'MERE!"

And it's bad news
Baby I'm bad news
I'm just bad news, bad news, bad news

And it's bad news
Baby it's bad news
It's just bad news, bad news, bad news

'Cause you're just damage control
for a walking corpse like me - like you

'Cause we'll all be
Portions for foxes
Yeah we'll all be
Portions for foxes

There's a pretty young thing in front of you
and she's real pretty and she's real into you
and then she's sleepin' inside of you
and the talkin' leads to touchin'
then touchin' leads to sex
and then there is no mystery left

And it's bad news
I don't blame you
I do the same thing
I get lonely too

And you're bad news
My friends tell me to leave you
That you're bad news, bad news, bad news

That you're bad news
Baby you're bad news
and you're bad news
Baby you're bad news
and you're bad news
I don't care I like you
and you're bad news
I don't care I like you
I like you

And there's so much you could learn but you don't want to know

2009-02-02T16:52:00.000-08:00

So it hasn't been very long since my last log... but when you've been sick for going on 5 days, it all seems like a long time.

In those 5 days I have,

1. come down with some sort of virus at the same time as my housemate anthony

2. learned that Jake, John, and Kaitlin ( look use of the oxford comma!!!) may be coming out for the summer

3. decided to go vegan until the end of the school year with the exception that once a week i get to have sushi. and i ate sushi last night... and it was fabulous!!! spicy shrimp was WAY spicier than i've ever had... but still delicious ( I LOVE SUSHI)

4. learned/noticed that surprisingly, i know more guys with man boobs bigger than my breasts than i know girls with breasts bigger than me.

5. started whitening my teeth again. i stopped after like day 5 last time, because the strips were doing some crazy shit to my gums that made them hurt REAL bad, so we're trying them again now, because i have noticed that i really really really need to whiten my teeth

6. also considered buying a car. I looked into a vespa but they're way more expensive than i thought (for the ones that can go on the freeway atleast) plus, if friends visit over the summer, i need a way to drive them around.

7. found chloriseptic spray and Halls defense citrus cough lozanges are like the loves of my life. atleast right now

8. become addicted to youtube. Hey when you're sick for the whole duration of no class period and yet you have a ton of reading to do, what would you do? that's correct. you would ditch the reading, go on youtube and waste countless hours subscribbing to interesting people with vlogs... btw Julia Nunes and i believe his name is CARLIEISSOOOOOOCOOL are my 2 favorites to follow

9. had my pet peeve of people adding water to the hand soap reaffirmed. Trust me, i catch you doing it, i'll have your head. There is plenty of soap under the sink!!!!! Its not a big fucking problem until you start adding water!!!

10. started becoming a little bit more of a healthy person by taking cal/mag tabs, synthroid, iron and all other good for you pills like vitamin C, which its a little too late for, but hey, prevention can never start too early for next time eh?

ha ha right... ok.. so i now must go take off these whitening strips and get ready for dance class in about 2 hours. i love you all. I've been home alone for like 4 hours. Le Sigh... ha ha

Almost forgot...song lyrics!!!

The Trapeze Swinger - Iron and Wine

Please, remember me
Happily
By the rosebush laughing
With bruises on my chin
The time when
We counted every black car passing
Your house beneath the hill
And up until
Someone caught us in the kitchen
With maps, a mountain range,
A piggy bank
A vision too removed to mention
But

Please, remember me
Fondly
I heard from someone you're still pretty
And then
They went on to say
That the pearly gates
Had some eloquent graffiti
Like 'We'll meet again'
And 'Fuck the man'
And 'Tell my mother not to worry'
And angels with their gray
Handshakes
Were always done in such a hurry
And

Please, remember me
At Halloween
Making fools of all the neighbors
Our faces painted white
By midnight
We'd forgotten one another
And when the morning came
I was ashamed
Only now it seems so silly
That season left the world
And then returned
And now you're lit up by the city
So

Please, remember me
Mistakenly
In the window of the tallest tower call
Then pass us by
But much too high
To see the empty road at happy hour
Leave and resonate
Just like the gates
Around the holy kingdom
With words like 'Lost and Found' and 'Don't Look Down'
And 'Someone Save Temptation'
And

Please, remember me
As in the dream
We had as rug-burned babies
Among the fallen trees
And fast asleep
Aside the lions and the ladies
That called you what you like
And even might
Give a gift for your behavior
A fleeting chance to see
A trapeze
Swing as high as any savior
But

Please, remember me
My misery
And how it lost me all I wanted
Those dogs that love the rain
And chasing trains
The colored birds above there running
In circles round the well
And where it spells
On the wall behind St. Peter's
So bright with cinder gray
And spray paint
'Who the hell can see forever?'
And

Please, remember me
Seldomly
In the car behind the carnival
My hand between your knees
You turn from me
And said 'The trapeze act was wonderful
But never meant to last'
The clown that passed
Saw me just come up with anger
When it filled with circus dogs
The parking lot
Had an element of danger
So

Please, remember me
Finally
And all my uphill clawing
My dear
But if i make
The pearly gates
Do my best to make a drawing
Of God and Lucifer
A boy and girl
An angel kissin on a sinner
A monkey and a man
A marching band
All around the frightened trapeze swingers

I hope you're satisfied with your bullshit and your lies

2009-01-30T18:38:00.000-08:00

So if you ever need a class to fall asleep in, i personally recommend political public policy. Not only is it boring for non poli-sci majors, but also just reading a book that attempts to explain the intimate details of public policy in the early 1900's by DELIMITING a subject just makes it all the more confusing. Because i don't expect everyone to care or even want to understand, it pretty much means having to describe something in the absolute simplest terms BY figuring out what it is NOT. This is also relevant in my political ideology class and its driving me nuts.

It's been a while since i've been able to post because A. school and reading take up massive amounts of time B. i kinda forgot about it C. i've been sick with the whole throat thing again and D. i've been spending way too much time thinking about things not related to my life in california
So not much is new just wanted to say hi, take a break from monotonous reading. Tell you Scott is coming over for dinner tomorrow night and i've no idea what to make. And I also really really just want someone to pick me up and we go to some crazy place and go see a band nobody has ever heard of and then get some drinks and just be silly and have a blast.

So this post wasn't really meant for much except to post 2 new song lyrics... and make up for the really really long time since the last post. i need to catch up on other people's blogs and spend some time looking up vegan red velvet cupcakes. I also need to buy baking equipment. I AM THE CUPCAKE WOMAN!!! DON"T MESS WITH ME!!! tee hee hee

Metronome Arthritis" At The Drive-In

strike this match
and let loose the oven's breath
up the volume that
flirts with the UHF

swipe the magnet on the audio tape
these arsons of grand larceny
keep running...keep running in place
achilles tendon
severed from the race

quick to the throat
in this ink cartridge funeral
marble caps lock
zip code affiliate
you got a run on your pharmaceuticals
you better change it
before the night grows old

set the temperature on delete
keep running...keep running in place
let's hit the neighborhood today

you got a run on your pharmaceuticals
you better change it
before the night grows old
prescriptions filled
now cut your suit and tie cuticals
you cut your fingernails way too short

what if forensics finds the answers
what if they stole my fingerprints?
where did i leave my book of matches?
we'll find you...
we'll find you...

"Chocolate" Snow Patrol

This could be the very minute
I'm aware I'm alive
All these places feel like home

With a name I'd never chosen
I can make my first steps
As a child of 25

This is the straw, final straw in the
Roof of my mouth as I lie to you
Just because I'm sorry doesn't mean
I didn't enjoy it at the time

You're the only thing that I love
It scares me more every day
On my knees I think clearer

Goodness knows I saw it coming
Or at least I'll claim I did
But in truth I'm lost for words

What have I done it's too late for that
What have I become truth is nothing yet
A simple mistake starts the hardest time
I promise I'll do anything you ask...this time

With a name i've never chosen, i can make my first steps as a child of 25

2009-01-19T13:54:00.000-08:00

School goes back tomorrow and i have 3 classes with a teacher nobody knows anything about... ha ha this can either be a really good or really bad thing. But other than dreading school, there isn't much going on here on this side of the world (country, city, state, whichever applies) Though i've been going through and editing the thousands of i-tunes songs that bridgette gave me over winter break and i stumbled upon this artists called sondre lerche. This guy is phenominal. His lyrics are really really simple, and as boring as i would usually find that, when he's singing it, you just get lost in the song. a rarity for me. Also, Julia Nunes. She's fabulous, fantastic, hilarious and about 20 bajillion other adjectives i'm at a loss to use to describe her. Brittany got me addicted to her. And she does this cover of "build me up, buttercup" and it makes me so happy. If i watch it everyday for the rest of the semester, i think all the stress will just flow right outta me.

So we're all waiting for the rest of the roommates to get back so we can spend the day at the movie theatre. I really want to see defiance and paul blart: mall cop. so far we agreed on paul blart, but i would rather go see defiance than bride wars. I am considering buying a video camera, just so i can make little video's to send to friends and show how my day is going and stuff like that... but i dunno... it might just be a waste of money, depending on how often i use it. Also i'm so sick and tired of my phone, i really want this new one t-mobile has called a Behold. I would have just dropped my parents plan and gone for my own, but all those activation fees and monthly fee's for minutes that i won't even come close to using turned me off. So i'll just get a new phone seeing as thats really my only problem right now. I could also use a new ipod seeing as this one has a shattered screen. But so long as it works, i guess there really is no need to replace it, yet.

But one thing that i am most excited about is that it is almost Spring!!! which means TOURS!!!! bands usually start hitting the road in spring after breaking out of the recording studios they took refuge in from the cold all winter. And one band i could not be happier to see will be Motion City Soundtrack. Because as much as people think warped tour sucks, you kinda can't help but want to go when its THE ONLY time you can make it to see THE SOUNDS when they decide to grace the US with their presence. They've been here like twice last year and both times i was way to fucking busy or had no way of getting there. Sucked for me. So this year, my goal is to hit atleast 1 show a month. And i'll probably just spend my friday's at the Roxy or the Troubador. Doesn't matter who's playing, i'll be able to check out some new and upcoming bands before the rest of society has a chance to get their hands on them and change them. So who wants to donate to my ticket fund? ha ha

Ok so i said i'd be leavng song lyrics. And i love this song. It's by motion city soundtrack and i think it's one of the cutest music videos i've ever seen. So long all my nearly beloved. You'll hear from me soon... ha ha happy martin luther king day. Or just happy monday to everyone outside of the US

I'll get lost, messed up and bored when I'm alone too long
I can't sleep, function or eat when I'm not with someone
Late last fall, she ended it all and moved to who-knows-where
Just like that, she vanished and packed and never even called

You feel a certain sense of synergy between yourself and me
A kind of macabre and somber Wonder-twin kind of harmony
What if it was you?
You that I needed all along
I felt like a fool,
Kicking and screaming and pretending we were wrong

Let's get wrecked on pop tarts and sex and see the Taj Mahal
Let's save birds from Prince William Sound and skateboard through the mall
Let's fight crime with mangoes and limes and join the PGA
Let's win big with every spin but hurry, I can't wait

Do you spend a fortune on those late-night prepaid television scams
In search of the perfect blend of steak knife and non-stick frying pan?
What if it was you?
You that I needed all along
I felt like a fool
Thinking we were completely wrong
It seemed like a dream
A beautiful screen
That echoed forever
And made us not afraid to feel a thing

And after it ends
We'll try to be friends
They say that what doesn't kill us makes us who we are

All this time and everything's changed but I still feel the same
All good things eventually end and get washed down the drain
What a disaster it would be if you discovered that I cared
A little too much for friends but not enough to share

What if it was you?
You that I needed all along
I felt like a fool
Now that I'm sure that I was wrong
It had to be you.
It had to be you.
It had to be you.
I knew it was you

I don't mind restrictions or if you're blacking out the friction. Its just an escape, its overrated anyway

2009-01-15T16:45:00.000-08:00

So i never thought that i would see the day when i would actually be happy to go back to my classes. I've definitely enjoyed my break, but now that i'm back in northridge i find it hard to know what to do with myself... i can only plan out so much of my day... ha ha and i don't have any more House MD. dvds to catch up on. Great show.

I took my veganism to the next level today and actually baked. The dough was really really dry and wasn't holding together so i was sure they were goners... but they actually turned out alright. Everyone liked them. But although they're healthier than most other cookies, i don't think it means i should go ahead and eat 20. Jk i only at 2 and that was more than enough. i had really felt like i was missing something on this vegan kick as its hard to find vegan chocolate much less good vegan baked goods that don't break the bank. So i was baking today while dancing around the kitchen to Girl Talk and i loved it. it reminded me of how much fun New Years had been. So i've spent all day listening to Girl Talk and Death Cab for Cutie's "the photo album". i think it's my favorite.

I've been doing a lot of looking online for new clothes to wear after i lose some more weight. I'm really excited and hopefully i can afford them ha ha.

So Brittany has made me become a fan of Neutral Milk Hotel... and this is her favorite song and i am quickly seeing why

the aeroplane over the sea - neutral milk hotel

What a beautiful face
I have found in this place
That is circling all round the sun
What a beautiful dream
That could flash on the screen
In a blink of an eye and be gone from me
Soft and sweet
Let me hold it close and keep it here with me, me

And one day we will die
And our ashes will fly from the aeroplane over the sea
But for now we are young
Let us lay in the sun
And count every beautiful thing we can see
Love to be
In the arms of all I'm keeping here with me, me

What a curious life we have found here tonight
There is music that sounds from the street
There are lights in the clouds
Anne's ghost all around
Hear her voice as it's rolling and ringing through me
Soft and sweet
How the notes all bend and reach above the trees, trees

Now how I remember you
How I would push my fingers through
Your mouth to make those muscles move
That made your voice so smooth and sweet
Now we keep where we don't know
All secrets sleep in winters clothes
With one you loved so long ago
Now he don't even know his name

What a beautiful face
I have found in this place
That is circling all round' the sun
And when we meet on a cloud
I'll be laughing out loud
I'll be laughing with everyone I see
Can't believe how strange it is to be anything at all

The best stories are the ones that require a long explination

2009-01-11T23:41:00.000-08:00

that's the lesson of the day folks...

so its almost midnight... and i don't think i'll be getting to sleep early... because i'm too excited to be home... and my room is a mess because i have to unpack from the equivalent of 2 trips...

so i went sewer surfing yesterday with John Beard and Lindsay Petri... it was fun just being out with friends... then we had chicken nuggets which i haven't had in forever and watched a movie. Just overall, i love being back here because i don't feel like a tourist or a guest and i have no worries about school or anything... we need to go sewer surfing more often.

I have my gold leaf necklace back also... i lost it 2 years ago after a very drunk me gave it to john for taking care of me. 2nd lesson of the day... don't wear jewlery to parties where there will be drinking. I thought i might never see it again.

But anyway just wanted to catch up, say hullo and say i'm so happy to be back at "home" now... i think i'm going to start posting song lyrics on a regular basis... just because i was going over the song lyrics i had posted on my lj about 4 years ago and i found lyrics to songs i had totally forgotten i loved... who knows... maybe that'll happen again...now the problem is choosing a song to start this whole thing off with a bang

Blacking out the friction - Death Cab for Cutie

I don't mind the weather, I've got scarves and caps and sweaters,
I've got long johns under slacks for blustery days.
I think that's its brainless to assume that making changes
to your window's view will give a new perspective.
The hardest part is yet to come.

I don't mind restrictions or if you're blacking out the friction.
It's just an escape it's overrated anyways.
The hardest part is yet to come,
when you will cross the country a-lone.

Now there's a aching in my back, a stabbing pain that says i lack the common sense and confidence

2009-01-11T20:37:00.000-08:00

so i had this dream last night that i shared with bridgette. and i thought i might share it with you guys also.
ok so this is as much as i remember to write down when i woke up

Ok so the first thing i remember is where in some sort of room with some of the people from the group ( i remember carlo and dan, and bryan) and some other i'm assuming actors they know. And bridgette and i are talking about the sushi we just ate. Then we're heading down these grey carpeted stairs in like a winding fashion and for some reason bridgette and i are talking to some guy about meryl streep and how here first acting gig was in a movie playing an alcoholic or a maniac (i don't quite remember). so anyway we get into the auditorium and i guess while i was talking to this guy i got separated from bridgette and i found bridgette sitting a few rows over. So bridgette is sitting 3 seats on the right so i have to cross over 2 other people and bridgette to sit next to her. When i next look up i see John, TJ, and some other girl sitting on these 3 seats that are a little elevated. (They were like guests of honor or something at the show.) John had his longer hair and was wearing a crown and TJ was wearing some purple or blue toga/cape. The room is set up like a steep arena and it circles around the square stage in the middle of the room. So the whole group of actors come out and start performing and i think it's like a comedy night thing. So the first act after the group performs, i notice is one of my high school friends rosanna. She's kind of a bitch and that shows even in this dream. She's wearing a pink track suit and these high top black moccasins. so its 4 girls in this group called" laura and the laurants" and they're singers. Rosanna as she is walking from her corner to the center of the stage gets the cable to the microphone wrapped around her foot and i notice she looks right at the judges and smiles. Then at the end of her act she says "we did pretty good considering some of the people in this group are vagrants". Then for some reason i'm wearing a pink toga and i have this arrow shaped pin i'm trying to use to keep it closed. I prick myself and the next thing i know rosanna is wearing the pink toga. I think "she's such a slut" and she then verbally says " i'm such a slut" and goes to sit down between the girl judge and TJ. (but there is no chair so i don't know where she was sitting)
So anyway another act comes on with a girl performing. I dont remember what it was but i remember everyone was laughing. And i remember looking over at the judges and TJ and John are staring at me like zombies.
Anyway third act resumes with a video that this guy has made. It's a lot like artie's one where he wore the wig and would make those funny sounds and faces and then kaitlin comes over to try and help get rid of him from jake's house. Anyway so the act is this guy who has this really dark dirty face but his cover has the texture of like a veil. The thing is though that he kinda looks like Greg but its not Greg. So i think he might have been wearing like a pantyhose over his face, but he was doing the same thing making funny noises and disrupting people and running all over the place. Near the end of the clip i'm in it and i'm in a classroom pointing at something off screen and i say " it's so so so so blue" and then somebody says " don't TJ up Russia" And thats where the dream ends.

I think my dream included almost everyone either in reference to something in the dream or they were in the dream. Anyway so i hope you enjoyed this little story.

And if you're not content to just believe, And if you don't consent to just let it be, Stretch out your legs and dance with me all night.

2009-01-07T18:00:00.000-08:00

I really wish i didn't have emotional ADD... its quite tiresome and gets in the way of things...

So i'm back in Califoofia (thats what Laitlin calls California) and the plane flight wasn't horrible, but it reminded me that i should be thankful i only do this once a year. And that its not on the way to New Zealand anymore. ha ha. Plane flight got in late to Mineappolis, and i had to rush to my connecting flight (remember my last blog about it being a really long terminal? well they didn't shorten it any)

So i went back to the home in northridge for about 4 hours. Lindsay, John, Jamie and i opted to watch kill bill and then i packed all my dirty laundry into a basket and threw clean clothes that i didn't pack for Jersey in a bag. Then I spent the night at John's and got home after a wonderful breakfast on DELL TACO!!! I love you chicken soft tacos. HAVE I TOLD YOU LATELY THAT I LOVE YOU? BTW i forgot to mention i had IN-N-OUT when i got back to Cali, and let me say... BEST BURGER EVER!!! god i missed it... and they actually had good fries this time (the one by my house is about 99% horrible with fries)

so i'm at the parent's house until sunday afternoon. making up for not being here christmas and new years. Trying to sell my textbooks so i have money for next semesters books. And possibly my next tattoo...

ha ha so the polar bear turned out wonderfully. i love it. The bruise around it is so red it looks like the polar bear is walking in a sunset. Gorgeous... So i miss everyone already back in New Jersey. TJ for showing me how to finally beat someone in chess. Kaitlin for taking wonderful woodland nymph pics with us and convincing jake's parents to let us have new years at their house. Bridgette for just being the most god damn lovable person in the world and i just can't think of anything more to say than i love her!!!! John for watching movies with us (james bond of course) and being a part of my diner virginity breaking. Jake for kicking my ass in chess and good luck with finishing editing that movie. Greg - who's eyes are so big i feel like i'm helplessly lost and kinda scared.

ha ha so anyway... had good mexican food today... and i feel like a total dork for telling you this story but when i told my mum wecouldn't stop laughing...

So i'm at my parent's house until sunday, and because my brother now sleeps in my old room, i'm forced to sleep in his old bedroom upstairs. So there are no windows in his room and when you turn out the lights its pitch black. Not kidding PITCH FUCKING BLACK. Anyway it was nice to go to sleep like that seeing as in northridge our driveway flood light randomly turns on and wakes me up, or bridgette's room always had moonlight coming in. Either way i wake up in the middle of the night in a terrible panic and can't remember where the hell i am. I freak out, fall outta bed and try to find a door. Remember it's pitch black. and i feel like i'm suffocating because i can't see anything. I head to the far side of the room in seach of a door and start hitting my stored boxes. Then i hit the chest my chest of drawers i stored up there. I finally find the door and i'm so relieved. Once i opened the door i vaguely remember realizing where i am and the next thing i know i'm back to sleep. It was the weirdist feeling ever. MORAL OF STORY : Kick your brother out of your old room so you can sleep somewhere familiar

Caviar and Cigarettes, Well versed in Etiquette

2009-01-03T21:08:00.000-08:00

So another really late night post. But i just wanted to say before we go to bed how excited i am for John Mielke to come over tomorrow. We're gonna watch some james bond after playing manhunt/ hide and go seek in the woods!!! Ha ha so bridgette decided we needed to try and learn the Bye Bye Bye (N'sync) dance. And ever since i've wanted to listen to N'sync. I think its more a nostalgia thing than an I LOVE N'SYNC!!! thing.

but bridgette and i went out into the woods today and walked on the ice and actually had a blast trying to figure out if there was water under the ice or not as we walked on it. So i've had an amazing time out here in New Jersey and I'm excited for Monday. We're going into the city to turn in bridgette's paper and pick up her power chord in Greenwich Village, then we're heading to Little Italy for Tiramisu and lastly to the point between the two to get my tattoo done. I'm a little nervous but really excited. and i hope Kaitlin can come. Because i love her and hope that she can get the day off to come to New York. Anyway i'll update a little more lately. I'm a little sad i didn't get to philadelphia, but actually it was a random idea that i only thought of when it was mentioned so its all good. Anyway We have a busy day tomorrow and i want to look good. So have a wonderful night.

It's a melody played on a penny arcade

~ Erin

Just because i wear a uniform doesn't make me a girl scout

2009-01-02T19:10:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year everyone... and this year is off with a bang and off to a great start

So this year i spent New Years in New Jersey and it was a blast... i met friends of Kaitlin and Bridgette and it was a lot of fun. I didn't drink too much so i had a good time and didn't do anything stupid. But let me tell you. All of us dancing to Girl Talk could not have been more fun. Best idea EVER!! we have some pictures of us dancing with our glow sticks and on long exposure they came out really really interesting. And i got to meet john. ha ha the highlight of my trip so far.

So the ball dropped and everyone hung out for a little while longer and went to bed. Woke up later in the day and since ealmost everyone had spent the night we decided what better to do with our new years day than make a movie? so we did and it was probably the most fun new years day i've had, probably ever. When the movie comes out we'll make sure to post it for you all to see.

And we finally left jake's house at about midnight (so officially jan 2nd) fell asleep in bridgette's mum's bed and then sent the whole day on bridgette's bed just watching movies and playing on our mac's. btw Laitlin, B, and Bearin form the black macbook club. Let us know if you qualify to join and can send in an application. Ha ha

so anyway, its been a busy trip and full of meet and greets (makes me feel like i'm in a band) and getting lost in brooklyn, while trying to get out of Manhattan into New Jersey. So lots of adventures i'll fill you all in on when i find some more free time ( you would think that this would be the perfect time for this). But as all good things must come to an end i'm going to finish this post up and perhaps write again tomorrow. But before i go, i just have to say how amazing "the apartment" is. The one from 1960 with jack lemmon and shirley Maclaine. If you haven't seen it, you MUST watch it. Its one of my favorites and i think that even people who don't like mushy movies can watch it, because it has this sense on cynicism. Its wonderful and well, i can no longer do it justice by going on and on about it.

Soon everybody will ask what became of you, and with much adu,

~ Erin

C'est si bon

2008-12-23T09:53:00.000-08:00

its 20 degrees outside... the perfect day for sleeping in late, drinking hot coffee, and just spending all day online doing nothing...

so yesterday was fun... bridgette and i went into the city while she had class and i went into grenich village in search of a place called The magnolia bakery that bridgette said had the best cupcakes... they are amazing... but if you really want them to be amazing you have to eat them almost immediately... they get a little stale when you walk around the city with them for 9 hours in 9F temperature... i have never been colder in my life... my legs felt like needles were in them when i finally found a warm place to take refuge in...

so i did find a few christmas presents for people... you'll get them eventually... ha ha

so i plan on taking more pictures when i find batteries for my computer... the only problem is at the most i can take 27 pictures because i have no memory card on my camera...

anyway... peace love and happiness

~ erin

Red reindeer and pink pajama pants

2008-12-21T10:08:00.000-08:00

so here we are... 5 of us stuck in jake's house... and its so beautiful outside... the snow and the pretty trees and the fact that i can be under the covers and watching it all outside the windows.... this place is pretty big... and its warm so i'm not too scared about the fact that we couldn't leave last night and its after 1 and the streets still haven't been plowed... the point of living back east must be... don't make plans because you're not going ANYWHERE once it has snowed... and according to bridgette and kaitlin its the reason nobody made it over last night...

i sound like the dork in the house because everybody else has seen this much snow before... and although i have a few times... its actually feeling like christmas... and the bagle in my stomach is making me happy

Carlo is playing some video game with Eatern European Mob men... and i think its hilarious to hear them speak in such accents while talking about women and something about darts... and referring to everyone as cousin... shouldn't it be comrad?

ok so bridgette and i are about to play with the scythe-chette we foud in the bonus room... we don't know who felt the need for a machette with a scythe but its here... and i have to go save carlo from being killed by bridgette with an aruban machette... i dont know the difference but either way

Apparently anyone who asks you if you need a ride shouldn't be giving you one

2008-12-18T14:59:00.000-08:00

thats the advice of the baggage carrier cart in the food court.

So i'm here... i made it... and god do i hate connection flights. But i'm glad i got off that first plane... because i was so over being stuck in the middle and still being hungover... i just wanted to curl up by a toilet and die...

So Minneapolis has quite a long airport... it took me almost my whole layover just to pee and make it to the gate... but on the flight into minneapolis i realized why concerts are never going on during the winter. Its because nobody is willing to take the fucking risk of driving. it was horrible weather in Minnesota. Apparently it was 9 F when i got there ... 9 F people!!! i have never ever been in whether that cold!!! so i'm really excited to be here...

so i've just made a new friend with a girl from germany who is attending Rutkers in New York and we're just talking about life and school, traveling and computer stuff. i love it here

i drove today in New Jersey and it was insanely scary because of the screeching creepy sounds coming from the front of the car and well we made it back alive... but i met jake and we had fun... i almost made the mistake of screaming "surprise" at kaitlin in the library where she works

(update 12.19.2008)

I went into the city aroud noon today with bridgette. walked around the metropolitan museum for about 2 hours, then i found dean and deluca to grab a red velvet cupcake... and then being so amazed with the snow and beauty of everything i ended up getting lost in Central Park for over an hour and when i tried to find my way back to to the met i got even more lost. apparently no one in new york knows where the hell 7th Ave is and i even had one person ask me if there WAS even a 7th ave... they made me question my own self of where the metro drop off was...

anyway amazing day. kaitlin is here and spending the night and we are watching house. so its insanely addicting and i gotta go... luv ya all... especially you bridgette...

sex, music and amazing trips,

Erin

Maja Iverson makes me want to be Swedish

2008-12-10T12:22:00.000-08:00

so its just been a busy busy week... finals start tomorrow... my 25 page paper is due and i'm about on page 19... so i've still got a bit of work to do....

just wanted to get on here... say hi to everyone who actaully reads this... and update by saying that as much as i love christmas... our house, especially my room, is very unfestive. For a few reasons. A- i dont have the time B- i don't have the money nor do i have anything christ-massy of my own except for ornaments (and no tree) C- whats the point? i leave for new jersey on the 18th and won't be home until after new years.

I'm hella excited though... its really starting to settle in that i'm on my own. I mean i see mum from time to time and although i do my own grocery shopping and stuff like that, the whole not talking to parents for sometimes weeks at a time, the spending holidays away, and making decisions about tattoo's on my own is really making it sink in soon.

So i'll be getting a tattoo design of the fleur de lyce (sp?) by bridgette behind my left ear sometime between now and school going back next semester. Its so weird to not have to ask or tell my parents. Um... John will be coming with me so that'll be fun... i can use all the moral support i can muster because i've totally forgotten about any pain or the taking care of tattoo's since the last one over 2 years ago.

so yeah... everything is going great.... jsut wanted to wish everyone a very merry christmas and i'm very very excited that my paramore goodie bag will be arriving shortly... seriously though... they said during the week of the 15th they're shipping them out... but i hope its rush delivery and they mail it the 15th ... because i leave for New Jersey hella early thursday morning and i really really can't wait until after the new year to find out what the hell is in it!!! GAHHHH!!!

lol ok so Almost acoustic christmas... this saturday and sunday... sadly i can't afford to go and i am not having much luck at winning tickets... but c'est la vie... another year perhaps...

je t'aime

2008-12-03T11:24:00.000-08:00

just to let you know... i never stopped

so as much as it sucks to lose friends and relationships, what sucks the most is the no closure part... no closure with jarrett, no closure with melody, no closure with stacy

Oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.Oh, oh I need an ending.
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain?
You can take your time, take my time.

Father, oh father, are you ready, to let it begin, cus i am here now, i want to dance in the bloody palm of your hand

The Shack

2008-11-21T17:08:00.000-08:00

So its not really the most recommended book for atheists or anyone who doesn't believe in god but i've heard atleast 2 or 3 people talk about this book and i thought i should read it. I'm only about 75 pages into it, but its fascinating and deep. I think i relate to it on a couple different levels and i think this book is good for anyone along different walks of life. Quick synopsis is a family goes camping, his daughter disappears and its about his relationship with god. thats all that i'm up to right now. but actually since i've started reading it i've found so many people who have heard about it, or have read it, or something like that. so i'm really excited to finish it and we'll see how it goes. I'll keep you all updated when i'm done.

Son't de mont que vont tres bien ensemble

Observations While Waiting for the Bus

2008-11-15T12:24:00.000-08:00

So while its raining ash here, i had a poli sci class to get to and since i don't have a car, i take the bus. So while waiting i noticed a lot of the drivers are so somber. They almost have this expression of pissed off. I understand you should concentrate on driving people, but whatever happened to the good old days of listening to music and bouncing and singing along? seriously... there could not possibly be the excuse that they all don't have cd players or radios. so in attempt to perhaps solve this issue i thought maybe they just don't know some good songs to drive to and sing along to. And who knows... you just might entertain some people who watch you driving as we wait for the bus.

Hot'n cold - basement jaxx

Sir Duke - Stevie Wonder

With a Little Help from My Friends - The Beatles

Bruises - Chairlift

Your Retro Career Melted - The Faint

Kiss With a Fist - Florence and the Machine

ok so this was just to get you started... so add some more and have fun in your car... don't look like your in jail for a crime you didn't commit... because as much as people tells you no one pays attention, we actually do when we're bored

Conundrums

2008-11-10T22:36:00.000-08:00

this explains tonight in depth discussion between my roommate maribel and i... ha ha all of life's little conundrums...

so i love postsecret so much i'm posting a few from this week on here... enjoy

try reading the master and margarita if you ever get the chance... its an amazing book... i only wish i had the time to finish it...

also if you have read "the shack" i would love to hear from you what you thought and maybe a little bit more of a detailed summary than what the book has on the back cover...

life is like a bowl of oranges

Clairaudients

2008-09-24T11:58:00.000-07:00

so Postsecret.com is pretty amazing for anyone who doesn't already know... Maribel and I went to hear Frank, the guy who started it all, talk last night at USC and it was a pretty amazing event. I don't know what it is about reading other people's secrets, but its funny to see that enough people to fill bovard auditorium feel the same way you do.

i think it has to do with the fact that you often find secrets you can relate to, yet you don't know the person, so there is some mysterious connection. Its indescribable... you just have to experience it yourself.

you know that point in time when you can just write like amazing blogs that touch everyone and don't just focus on you and your everyday routine? well there should be more like that. the more the masses can relate to the topic or the writer, the more of an impact you can have and thats a much better feeling than bitching about the last guy you broke up with or things of that nature. Not that they don't matter... but well... not everyone can relate to specifics, the more general the more open to interpretation.

So i guess i'm going to start trying that. Maybe someone will stumble across this and maybe be able to relate a sense of connection to themselves and who knows where that will take them?

Clairaudients - look it up... see what you think of it... how would you describe it? can you relate it to anything?

I guess that everybody went to a better party

2008-05-20T11:26:00.000-07:00

its also been a year since Stephen Hampton died... not gonna lie... its getting easier but it sure as hell ain't easy...

Marching Bands of Manhattan

2008-05-13T20:51:00.000-07:00

So first of all, don't take this as me praising the act... i'm praising the motive behind it...

i don't know what to call it, there is probably some great word out there on the top of my tongue but i'm jsut too tired to think about what it might be. But the drive that it takes to decide something and stick to it. How is it that there are these people who commit suicide, become anorexic, do these outrageous things? how do they stay motivated, how can they be so serene about the outcome of their decision? I admire them because i have no motivation. I can't do what they do, i wonder how i'm going to make it through a week, much less how i'm going to make it through a semester or to get a college degree... so i admire these people, not because they take what some would call the cowards way out, but because they have a drive to accomplish it and nothing is going to stop them... i want that... i want it so badly... because i don't want to be the one here still wondering whether she chose the right major, whether she made the right decision in going to a school that is so fucking easy to get into and didn't try harder, i don't want to be the girl who once again settled for a guy who couldn't support her in ANYTHING, even music choices.

So i'm still here, pissed off at counselors who seem to have lead me astray and gave me hope that i was going to get my AA over the summer, but have today decided to tell me that i need one more class... which just so happens to be waitlisted right now... and in my heart of hearts i know that the person i should really be mad at is me, because i didn't stay on top of things, i didn't ask the right questions, and god damn it sometimes i feel as though i didn't care enough... and all i want to do right now is care, care about something... care about a guy, care about school, care about a friend... i can't care about anything right now... and it really sucks to be motivated for anything when you can't find something to be motivated about...

You're My Androdgeny

2008-05-08T11:47:00.000-07:00

I'm on a whistling streak, along with a posting of a lot of blogs... i sound like a first class fire alarm

so Hayley mentioned tuesday that paramore would be going on tour at the end of summer with jacks mannequin... anybody know anything about that?

finals are 2/3 over!!! thank god... i would be happier if i didn't think about summer school starting in just over a week... another math class... oh so much fun... hopefully this means i don't have to take another math class at CSUN though... right?

so i'm looking into getting me self a side kick... kinda stoked... my phone that i've only had for like 9 months is already dying on me... freezing, won't receive pictures from people... don't know whats going on with it...

the store has sold btw... LASSENS HAS A NEW OWNER... but he's not in town... so i can't say there's a new owner in town...

So i feel i must turn back to my music rants... i LOVE LOVE LOVE approach the bench by the audition... its mind blowing... well atleast for me... everyone should listen to it... that and have gun will travel... Then yesterday i started listening to the wallflowers again... and i just fell in love reminiscing about when i was obsessed with them just after high school, and how great Jakob Dylan's voice is ( yes the son of bob Dylan) and how the lyrics always make me just feel so overwhelmed with a flood of emotions. Red Letter Days i think personally is one of their better albums, but you can't go wrong with any of them really...

To all you people in the world of blogs and blogging, life is a bowl of oranges...

If there's no such thing as boobs that are too big, then....

2008-05-08T08:49:00.000-07:00

Warped Tour is June 22... who is more stoked than me? no one... ok ok except maybe sandi... this year in going to be bomb... ok so it would be a little bit better if the sounds and paramore were playing ventura... but i'll be satisfied with what i'm given this year... they're giving me the audition... that in itself is well worth the price of warped tour and spending hours burning your skin in the hot hot sun...

hayley williams... ok ok so i'm not obsessed with her... but she's so darn cute... seriously... but i'm not stalking her or anything... and i think she has an amazing voice... ok i'm going to change the subject so i don't start sounding like a lesbo...

LUDO concert tomorrow and Death Cab For Cutie in 2 weeks... i'm just a little more than stoked!!! its what's getting me through finals...

so with finals here and me totally ignoring my intense need to study for them... i have decided to reminisce about better times... such as my thanksgiving in New York...

all of us having a marvelous time... btw the guy who took the picture had a really hot English accent

kaitlin getting her nose pierced... i really need to go back to this place to get my next tattoo

very hot piercing guy

more pictures later...

She's really into snow mobiles, she owns a lot of nice flashlights

2008-05-06T10:27:00.000-07:00

dun dun dun... last day of class before finals is complete... well almost... i have sociology left...

the house is a little weird with everyone at work or at school now, giving me hours of quiet time. Could be good or bad, but since i think my room is haunted i'm going with bad... we even tried to Ouija board my room... but no one wanted to make contact with us... we are going to try again sometime this week...

myspace is gone... mwa ha ha ha... its makes me think of that maniacal laugh wanda makes... if you don't already, you should all be watching corner gas... its a canadian show... but its really quite a "hoot"

i was talking to an acquaintance and i was admiring her ability to just get up and leave everything behind. She just moved to Australia for a few months and is now considering coming to the US... i wish i could just get up and leave like that... gives me motivation to do that as soon as i get out of school now. I would love to go to Greece and eastern Europe more than anything... i thought about being a roadie or tour manager but i sometimes feel i might not be as devoted to the career as some others might be so maybe its just best to think about and focus on my actual major...

while we are on the topic... i'm still #166 on the waitlist for dorms... kinda upsetting... but who knows... i'm just being patient and trying to not let things feel like they are totally out of my control...

to all of you in cyberspace... (well i have no idea who is actually reading this... if anyone), eating an apple a day won't keep the doctor away, but it will help the next time you go to the dentist...

Don't Look So Blue You Should Have Seen Right Through

2008-05-05T15:17:00.000-07:00

So lunch break blog... woo hoo... i just really felt the need to break the blog cherry here... and i'm also taking off my myspace... so i'm using this as a new addiction

not much going on... exciting exciting times in the life of erin... ha ha ha... so for anyone who cares and hasn't heard i will be going to CSUN... yeah i know i wanted to go to UCI... but i'm dealing with the cards i was dealt here... (something is starting to smell upstairs)

joe, the former all blacks guy, came into our store today, so i took a picture... the ironic thing is i took it for mum, but she won't be home for 5 weeks... oh well...

anyone heard the LUDO cd, You're Awful, I Love You? Well its pretty fucking awesome to be honest... so download it or do whatever it takes to listen to it... i'll be seeing them on jimmy on friday... pretty f-ing excited to be honest...

anyway i should probably head downstairs and eat unless i want to be really late for work...

to all of you in cyberspace... eat your greens!!!