I guess that everybody went to a better party

its also been a year since Stephen Hampton died... not gonna lie... its getting easier but it sure as hell ain't easy...

Marching Bands of Manhattan

So first of all, don't take this as me praising the act... i'm praising the motive behind it...

i don't know what to call it, there is probably some great word out there on the top of my tongue but i'm jsut too tired to think about what it might be. But the drive that it takes to decide something and stick to it. How is it that there are these people who commit suicide, become anorexic, do these outrageous things? how do they stay motivated, how can they be so serene about the outcome of their decision? I admire them because i have no motivation. I can't do what they do, i wonder how i'm going to make it through a week, much less how i'm going to make it through a semester or to get a college degree... so i admire these people, not because they take what some would call the cowards way out, but because they have a drive to accomplish it and nothing is going to stop them... i want that... i want it so badly... because i don't want to be the one here still wondering whether she chose the right major, whether she made the right decision in going to a school that is so fucking easy to get into and didn't try harder, i don't want to be the girl who once again settled for a guy who couldn't support her in ANYTHING, even music choices.

So i'm still here, pissed off at counselors who seem to have lead me astray and gave me hope that i was going to get my AA over the summer, but have today decided to tell me that i need one more class... which just so happens to be waitlisted right now... and in my heart of hearts i know that the person i should really be mad at is me, because i didn't stay on top of things, i didn't ask the right questions, and god damn it sometimes i feel as though i didn't care enough... and all i want to do right now is care, care about something... care about a guy, care about school, care about a friend... i can't care about anything right now... and it really sucks to be motivated for anything when you can't find something to be motivated about...

You're My Androdgeny

I'm on a whistling streak, along with a posting of a lot of blogs... i sound like a first class fire alarm

so Hayley mentioned tuesday that paramore would be going on tour at the end of summer with jacks mannequin... anybody know anything about that?

finals are 2/3 over!!! thank god... i would be happier if i didn't think about summer school starting in just over a week... another math class... oh so much fun... hopefully this means i don't have to take another math class at CSUN though... right?

so i'm looking into getting me self a side kick... kinda stoked... my phone that i've only had for like 9 months is already dying on me... freezing, won't receive pictures from people... don't know whats going on with it...

the store has sold btw... LASSENS HAS A NEW OWNER... but he's not in town... so i can't say there's a new owner in town...

So i feel i must turn back to my music rants... i LOVE LOVE LOVE approach the bench by the audition... its mind blowing... well atleast for me... everyone should listen to it... that and have gun will travel... Then yesterday i started listening to the wallflowers again... and i just fell in love reminiscing about when i was obsessed with them just after high school, and how great Jakob Dylan's voice is ( yes the son of bob Dylan) and how the lyrics always make me just feel so overwhelmed with a flood of emotions. Red Letter Days i think personally is one of their better albums, but you can't go wrong with any of them really...

To all you people in the world of blogs and blogging, life is a bowl of oranges...

If there's no such thing as boobs that are too big, then....

Warped Tour is June 22... who is more stoked than me? no one... ok ok except maybe sandi... this year in going to be bomb... ok so it would be a little bit better if the sounds and paramore were playing ventura... but i'll be satisfied with what i'm given this year... they're giving me the audition... that in itself is well worth the price of warped tour and spending hours burning your skin in the hot hot sun...

hayley williams... ok ok so i'm not obsessed with her... but she's so darn cute... seriously... but i'm not stalking her or anything... and i think she has an amazing voice... ok i'm going to change the subject so i don't start sounding like a lesbo...

LUDO concert tomorrow and Death Cab For Cutie in 2 weeks... i'm just a little more than stoked!!! its what's getting me through finals...


so with finals here and me totally ignoring my intense need to study for them... i have decided to reminisce about better times... such as my thanksgiving in New York...

all of us having a marvelous time... btw the guy who took the picture had a really hot English accent

kaitlin getting her nose pierced... i really need to go back to this place to get my next tattoo

very hot piercing guy

more pictures later...

She's really into snow mobiles, she owns a lot of nice flashlights

dun dun dun... last day of class before finals is complete... well almost... i have sociology left...

the house is a little weird with everyone at work or at school now, giving me hours of quiet time. Could be good or bad, but since i think my room is haunted i'm going with bad... we even tried to Ouija board my room... but no one wanted to make contact with us... we are going to try again sometime this week...

myspace is gone... mwa ha ha ha... its makes me think of that maniacal laugh wanda makes... if you don't already, you should all be watching corner gas... its a canadian show... but its really quite a "hoot"

i was talking to an acquaintance and i was admiring her ability to just get up and leave everything behind. She just moved to Australia for a few months and is now considering coming to the US... i wish i could just get up and leave like that... gives me motivation to do that as soon as i get out of school now. I would love to go to Greece and eastern Europe more than anything... i thought about being a roadie or tour manager but i sometimes feel i might not be as devoted to the career as some others might be so maybe its just best to think about and focus on my actual major...

while we are on the topic... i'm still #166 on the waitlist for dorms... kinda upsetting... but who knows... i'm just being patient and trying to not let things feel like they are totally out of my control...

to all of you in cyberspace... (well i have no idea who is actually reading this... if anyone), eating an apple a day won't keep the doctor away, but it will help the next time you go to the dentist...

Don't Look So Blue You Should Have Seen Right Through

So lunch break blog... woo hoo... i just really felt the need to break the blog cherry here... and i'm also taking off my myspace... so i'm using this as a new addiction

not much going on... exciting exciting times in the life of erin... ha ha ha... so for anyone who cares and hasn't heard i will be going to CSUN... yeah i know i wanted to go to UCI... but i'm dealing with the cards i was dealt here... (something is starting to smell upstairs)

joe, the former all blacks guy, came into our store today, so i took a picture... the ironic thing is i took it for mum, but she won't be home for 5 weeks... oh well...

anyone heard the LUDO cd, You're Awful, I Love You? Well its pretty fucking awesome to be honest... so download it or do whatever it takes to listen to it... i'll be seeing them on jimmy on friday... pretty f-ing excited to be honest...

anyway i should probably head downstairs and eat unless i want to be really late for work...

to all of you in cyberspace... eat your greens!!!