I hope you're satisfied with your bullshit and your lies

So if you ever need a class to fall asleep in, i personally recommend political public policy. Not only is it boring for non poli-sci majors, but also just reading a book that attempts to explain the intimate details of public policy in the early 1900's by DELIMITING a subject just makes it all the more confusing. Because i don't expect everyone to care or even want to understand, it pretty much means having to describe something in the absolute simplest terms BY figuring out what it is NOT. This is also relevant in my political ideology class and its driving me nuts.

It's been a while since i've been able to post because A. school and reading take up massive amounts of time B. i kinda forgot about it C. i've been sick with the whole throat thing again and D. i've been spending way too much time thinking about things not related to my life in california

So not much is new just wanted to say hi, take a break from monotonous reading. Tell you Scott is coming over for dinner tomorrow night and i've no idea what to make. And I also really really just want someone to pick me up and we go to some crazy place and go see a band nobody has ever heard of and then get some drinks and just be silly and have a blast. 

So this post wasn't really meant for much except to post 2 new song lyrics... and make up for the really really long time since the last post. i need to catch up on other people's blogs and spend some time looking up vegan red velvet cupcakes. I also need to buy baking equipment. I AM THE CUPCAKE WOMAN!!! DON"T MESS WITH ME!!! tee hee hee

Metronome Arthritis" At The Drive-In

strike this match
and let loose the oven's breath
up the volume that
flirts with the UHF

swipe the magnet on the audio tape
these arsons of grand larceny
keep running...keep running in place
achilles tendon
severed from the race

quick to the throat
in this ink cartridge funeral
marble caps lock
zip code affiliate
you got a run on your pharmaceuticals
you better change it
before the night grows old

set the temperature on delete
keep running...keep running in place
let's hit the neighborhood today

you got a run on your pharmaceuticals
you better change it
before the night grows old
prescriptions filled
now cut your suit and tie cuticals
you cut your fingernails way too short

what if forensics finds the answers
what if they stole my fingerprints?
where did i leave my book of matches?
we'll find you...
we'll find you...

"Chocolate" Snow Patrol

This could be the very minute
I'm aware I'm alive
All these places feel like home

With a name I'd never chosen
I can make my first steps
As a child of 25

This is the straw, final straw in the
Roof of my mouth as I lie to you
Just because I'm sorry doesn't mean
I didn't enjoy it at the time

You're the only thing that I love
It scares me more every day
On my knees I think clearer

Goodness knows I saw it coming
Or at least I'll claim I did
But in truth I'm lost for words

What have I done it's too late for that
What have I become truth is nothing yet
A simple mistake starts the hardest time
I promise I'll do anything you ask...this time

With a name i've never chosen, i can make my first steps as a child of 25

School goes back tomorrow and i have 3 classes with a teacher nobody knows anything about... ha ha this can either be a really good or really bad thing. But other than dreading school, there isn't much going on here on this side of the world (country, city, state, whichever applies) Though i've been going through and editing the thousands of i-tunes songs that bridgette gave me over winter break and i stumbled upon this artists called sondre lerche. This guy is phenominal. His lyrics are really really simple, and as boring as i would usually find that, when he's singing it, you just get lost in the song. a rarity for me. Also, Julia Nunes. She's fabulous, fantastic, hilarious and about 20 bajillion other adjectives i'm at a loss to use to describe her. Brittany got me addicted to her. And she does this cover of "build me up, buttercup" and it makes me so happy. If i watch it everyday for the rest of the semester, i think all the stress will just flow right outta me.

So we're all waiting for the rest of the roommates to get back so we can spend the day at the movie theatre. I really want to see defiance and paul blart: mall cop. so far we agreed on paul blart, but i would rather go see defiance than bride wars. I am considering buying a video camera, just so i can make little video's to send to friends and show how my day is going and stuff like that... but i dunno... it might just be a waste of money, depending on how often i use it. Also i'm so sick and tired of my phone, i really want this new one t-mobile has called a Behold. I would have just dropped my parents plan and gone for my own, but all those activation fees and monthly fee's for minutes that i won't even come close to using turned me off. So i'll just get a new phone seeing as thats really my only problem right now. I could also use a new ipod seeing as this one has a shattered screen. But so long as it works, i guess there really is no need to replace it, yet.

But one thing that i am most excited about is that it is almost Spring!!! which means TOURS!!!! bands usually start hitting the road in spring after breaking out of the recording studios they took refuge in from the cold all winter. And one band i could not be happier to see will be Motion City Soundtrack. Because as much as people think warped tour sucks, you kinda can't help but want to go when its THE ONLY time you can make it to see THE SOUNDS when they decide to grace the US with their presence. They've been here like twice last year and both times i was way to fucking busy or had no way of getting there. Sucked for me. So this year, my goal is to hit atleast 1 show a month. And i'll probably just spend my friday's at the Roxy or the Troubador. Doesn't matter who's playing, i'll be able to check out some new and upcoming bands before the rest of society has a chance to get their hands on them and change them. So who wants to donate to my ticket fund? ha ha 

Ok so i said i'd be leavng song lyrics. And i love this song. It's by motion city soundtrack and i think it's one of the cutest music videos i've ever seen. So long all my nearly beloved. You'll hear from me soon... ha ha happy martin luther king day. Or just happy monday to everyone outside of the US

I'll get lost, messed up and bored when I'm alone too long
I can't sleep, function or eat when I'm not with someone
Late last fall, she ended it all and moved to who-knows-where
Just like that, she vanished and packed and never even called

You feel a certain sense of synergy between yourself and me
A kind of macabre and somber Wonder-twin kind of harmony
What if it was you?
You that I needed all along
I felt like a fool,
Kicking and screaming and pretending we were wrong

Let's get wrecked on pop tarts and sex and see the Taj Mahal
Let's save birds from Prince William Sound and skateboard through the mall
Let's fight crime with mangoes and limes and join the PGA
Let's win big with every spin but hurry, I can't wait

Do you spend a fortune on those late-night prepaid television scams
In search of the perfect blend of steak knife and non-stick frying pan?
What if it was you?
You that I needed all along
I felt like a fool
Thinking we were completely wrong
It seemed like a dream
A beautiful screen
That echoed forever
And made us not afraid to feel a thing

And after it ends
We'll try to be friends
They say that what doesn't kill us makes us who we are

All this time and everything's changed but I still feel the same
All good things eventually end and get washed down the drain
What a disaster it would be if you discovered that I cared
A little too much for friends but not enough to share

What if it was you?
You that I needed all along
I felt like a fool
Now that I'm sure that I was wrong
It had to be you.
It had to be you.
It had to be you.
I knew it was you

I don't mind restrictions or if you're blacking out the friction. Its just an escape, its overrated anyway

So i never thought that i would see the day when i would actually be happy to go back to my classes. I've definitely enjoyed my break, but now that i'm back in northridge i find it hard to know what to do with myself... i can only plan out so much of my day... ha ha and i don't have any more House MD. dvds to catch up on. Great show.

I took my veganism to the next level today and actually baked. The dough was really really dry and wasn't holding together so i was sure they were goners... but they actually turned out alright. Everyone liked them. But although they're healthier than most other cookies, i don't think it means i should go ahead and eat 20. Jk i only at 2 and that was more than enough. i had really felt like i was missing something on this vegan kick as its hard to find vegan chocolate much less good vegan baked goods that don't break the bank. So i was baking today while dancing around the kitchen to Girl Talk and i loved it. it reminded me of how much fun  New Years had been. So i've spent all day listening to Girl Talk and Death Cab for Cutie's "the photo album". i think it's my favorite.

I've been doing a lot of looking online for new clothes to wear after i lose some more weight. I'm really excited and hopefully i can afford them ha ha.

So Brittany has made me become a fan of Neutral Milk Hotel... and this is her favorite song and i am quickly seeing why

the aeroplane over the sea - neutral milk hotel

What a beautiful face
I have found in this place
That is circling all round the sun
What a beautiful dream
That could flash on the screen
In a blink of an eye and be gone from me
Soft and sweet
Let me hold it close and keep it here with me, me

And one day we will die
And our ashes will fly from the aeroplane over the sea
But for now we are young
Let us lay in the sun
And count every beautiful thing we can see
Love to be
In the arms of all I'm keeping here with me, me

What a curious life we have found here tonight
There is music that sounds from the street
There are lights in the clouds
Anne's ghost all around
Hear her voice as it's rolling and ringing through me
Soft and sweet
How the notes all bend and reach above the trees, trees

Now how I remember you
How I would push my fingers through
Your mouth to make those muscles move
That made your voice so smooth and sweet
Now we keep where we don't know
All secrets sleep in winters clothes
With one you loved so long ago
Now he don't even know his name

What a beautiful face
I have found in this place
That is circling all round' the sun
And when we meet on a cloud
I'll be laughing out loud
I'll be laughing with everyone I see
Can't believe how strange it is to be anything at all

The best stories are the ones that require a long explination

that's the lesson of the day folks...

so its almost midnight... and i don't think i'll be getting to sleep early... because i'm too excited to be home... and my room is a mess because i have to unpack from the equivalent of 2 trips...

so i went sewer surfing yesterday with John Beard and Lindsay Petri... it was fun just being out with friends... then we had chicken nuggets which i haven't had in forever and watched a movie. Just overall, i love being back here because i don't feel like a tourist or a guest and i have no worries about school or anything... we need to go sewer surfing more often.

I have my gold leaf necklace back also... i lost it 2 years ago after a very drunk me gave it to john for taking care of me. 2nd lesson of the day... don't wear jewlery to parties where there will be drinking. I thought i might never see it again. 

But anyway just wanted to catch up, say hullo and say i'm so happy to be back at "home" now... i think i'm going to start posting song lyrics on a regular basis... just because i was going over the song lyrics i had posted on my lj about 4 years ago and i found lyrics to songs i had totally forgotten i loved... who knows... maybe that'll happen again...now the problem is choosing a song to start this whole thing off with a bang

Blacking out the friction - Death Cab for Cutie

I don't mind the weather, I've got scarves and caps and sweaters,
I've got long johns under slacks for blustery days. 
I think that's its brainless to assume that making changes 
to your window's view will give a new perspective. 
The hardest part is yet to come. 

I don't mind restrictions or if you're blacking out the friction. 
It's just an escape it's overrated anyways. 
The hardest part is yet to come, 
when you will cross the country a-lone.

Now there's a aching in my back, a stabbing pain that says i lack the common sense and confidence

so i had this dream last night that i shared with bridgette. and i thought i might share it with you guys also.
ok so this is as much as i remember to write down when i woke up

Ok so the first thing i remember is where in some sort of room with some of the people from the group ( i remember carlo and dan, and bryan) and some other i'm assuming actors they know. And bridgette and i are talking about the sushi we just ate. Then we're heading down these grey carpeted stairs in like a winding fashion and for some reason bridgette and i are talking to some guy about meryl streep and how here first acting gig was in a movie playing an alcoholic or a maniac (i don't quite remember). so anyway we get into the auditorium and i guess while i was talking to this guy i got separated from bridgette and i found bridgette sitting a few rows over. So bridgette is sitting 3 seats on the right so i have to cross over 2 other people and  bridgette to sit next to her. When i next look up i see John, TJ, and some other girl sitting on these 3 seats that are a little elevated. (They were like guests of honor or something at the show.) John had his longer hair and was wearing a crown and TJ was wearing some purple or blue toga/cape. The room is set up like a steep arena and it circles around the square stage in the middle of the room. So the whole group of actors come out and start performing and i think it's like a comedy night thing. So the first act after the group performs, i notice is one of my high school friends rosanna. She's kind of a bitch and that shows even in this dream. She's wearing a pink track suit and these high top black moccasins. so its 4 girls in this group called" laura and the laurants" and they're singers. Rosanna as she is walking from her corner to the center of the stage gets the cable to the microphone wrapped around her foot and i notice she looks right at the judges and smiles. Then at the end of her act she says "we did pretty good considering some of the people in this group are vagrants". Then for some reason i'm wearing a pink toga and i have this arrow shaped pin i'm trying to use to keep it closed. I prick myself and the next thing i know rosanna is wearing the pink toga. I think "she's such a slut" and she then verbally says " i'm such a slut" and goes to sit down between the girl judge and TJ. (but there is no chair so i don't know where she was sitting)
So anyway another act comes on with a girl performing. I dont remember what it was but i remember everyone was laughing. And i remember looking over at the judges and TJ and John are staring at me like zombies.
Anyway third act resumes with a video that this guy has made. It's a lot like artie's one where he wore the wig and would make those funny sounds and faces and then kaitlin comes over to try and help get rid of him from jake's house. Anyway so the act is this guy who has this really dark dirty face but his cover has the texture of like a veil. The thing is though that he kinda looks like Greg but its not Greg. So i think he might have been wearing like a pantyhose over his face, but he was doing the same thing making funny noises and disrupting people and running all over the place. Near the end of the clip i'm in it and i'm in a classroom pointing at something off screen and i say " it's so so so so blue" and then somebody says " don't TJ up Russia" And thats where the dream ends.

I think my dream included almost everyone either in reference to something in the dream or they were in the dream. Anyway so i hope you enjoyed this little story.

And if you're not content to just believe, And if you don't consent to just let it be, Stretch out your legs and dance with me all night.

I really wish i didn't have emotional ADD... its quite tiresome and gets in the way of things...

So i'm back in Califoofia (thats what Laitlin calls California) and the plane flight wasn't horrible, but it reminded me that i should be thankful i only do this once a year. And that its not on the way to New Zealand anymore. ha ha. Plane flight got in late to Mineappolis, and i had to rush to my connecting flight (remember my last blog about it being a really long terminal? well they didn't shorten it any)

So i went back to the home in northridge for about 4 hours. Lindsay, John, Jamie and i opted to watch kill bill and then i packed all my dirty laundry into a basket and threw clean clothes that i didn't pack for Jersey in a bag. Then I spent the night at John's and got home after a wonderful breakfast on DELL TACO!!! I love you chicken soft tacos. HAVE I TOLD YOU LATELY THAT I LOVE YOU? BTW i forgot to mention i had IN-N-OUT when i got back to Cali, and let me say... BEST BURGER EVER!!! god i missed it... and they actually had good fries this time (the one by my house is about 99% horrible with fries)

so i'm at the parent's house until sunday afternoon. making up for not being here christmas and new years. Trying to sell my textbooks so i have money for next semesters books. And possibly my next tattoo...

ha ha so the polar bear turned out wonderfully. i love it. The bruise around it is so red it looks like the polar bear is walking in a sunset. Gorgeous... So i miss everyone already back in New Jersey. TJ for showing me how to finally beat someone in chess. Kaitlin for taking wonderful woodland nymph pics with us and convincing jake's parents to let us have new years at their house. Bridgette for just being the most god damn lovable person in the world and i just can't think of anything more to say than i love her!!!! John for watching movies with us (james bond of course) and being a part of my diner virginity breaking. Jake for kicking my ass in chess and good luck with finishing editing that movie. Greg - who's eyes are so big i feel like i'm helplessly lost and kinda scared.

ha ha so anyway... had good mexican food today... and i feel like a total dork for telling you this story but when i told my mum wecouldn't stop laughing...

So i'm at my parent's house until sunday, and because my brother now sleeps in my old room, i'm forced to sleep in his old bedroom upstairs. So there are no windows in his room and when you turn out the lights its pitch black. Not kidding PITCH FUCKING BLACK. Anyway it was nice to go to sleep like that seeing as in northridge our driveway flood light randomly turns on and wakes me up, or bridgette's room always had moonlight coming in. Either way i wake up in the middle of the night in a terrible panic and can't remember where the hell i am. I freak out, fall outta bed and try to find a door. Remember it's pitch black. and i feel like i'm suffocating because i can't see anything. I head to the far side of the room in seach of a door and start hitting my stored boxes. Then i hit the chest my chest of drawers i stored up there. I finally find the door and i'm so relieved. Once i opened the door i vaguely remember realizing where i am and the next thing i know i'm back to sleep. It was the weirdist feeling ever. MORAL OF STORY : Kick your brother out of your old room so you can sleep somewhere familiar

Caviar and Cigarettes, Well versed in Etiquette

So another really late night post. But i just wanted to say before we go to bed how excited i am for John Mielke to come over tomorrow. We're gonna watch some james bond after playing manhunt/ hide and go seek in the woods!!! Ha ha so bridgette decided we needed to try and learn the Bye Bye Bye (N'sync) dance. And ever since i've wanted to listen to N'sync. I think its more a nostalgia thing than an I LOVE N'SYNC!!! thing.

but bridgette and i went out into the woods today and walked on the ice and actually had a blast trying to figure out if there was water under the ice or not as we walked on it. So i've had an amazing time out here in New Jersey and I'm excited for Monday. We're going into the city to turn in bridgette's paper and pick up her power chord in Greenwich Village, then we're heading to Little Italy for Tiramisu and lastly to the point between the two to get my tattoo done. I'm a little nervous but really excited. and i hope Kaitlin can come. Because i love her and hope that she can get the day off to come to New York. Anyway i'll update a little more lately. I'm a little sad i didn't get to philadelphia, but actually it was a random idea that i only thought of when it was mentioned so its all good. Anyway We have a busy day tomorrow and i want to look good. So have a wonderful night.

It's a melody played on a penny arcade

 ~ Erin

Just because i wear a uniform doesn't make me a girl scout

Happy New Year everyone... and this year is off with a bang and off to a great start

So this year i spent New Years in New Jersey and it was a blast... i met friends of Kaitlin and Bridgette and it was a lot of fun. I didn't drink too much so i had a good time and didn't do anything stupid. But let me tell you. All of us dancing to Girl Talk could not have been more fun. Best idea EVER!! we have some pictures of us dancing with our glow sticks and on long exposure they came out really really interesting. And i got to meet john. ha ha the highlight of my trip so far. 

So the ball dropped and everyone hung out for a little while longer and went to bed. Woke up later in the day and since ealmost everyone had spent the night we decided what better to do with our new years day than make a movie? so we did and it was probably the most fun new years day i've had, probably ever. When the movie comes out we'll make sure to post it for you all to see.

And we finally left jake's house at about midnight (so officially jan 2nd) fell asleep in bridgette's mum's bed and then sent the whole day on bridgette's bed just watching movies and playing on our mac's. btw Laitlin, B, and Bearin form the black macbook club. Let us know if you qualify to join and can send in an application. Ha ha

so anyway, its been a busy trip and full of meet and greets (makes me feel like i'm in a band) and getting lost in brooklyn, while trying to get out of Manhattan into New Jersey. So lots of adventures i'll fill you all in on when i find some more free time ( you would think that this would be the perfect time for this). But as all good things must come to an end i'm going to finish this post up and perhaps write again tomorrow. But before i go, i just have to say how amazing "the apartment" is. The one from 1960 with jack lemmon and shirley Maclaine. If you haven't seen it, you MUST watch it. Its one of my favorites and i think that even people who don't like mushy movies can watch it, because it has this sense on cynicism. Its wonderful and well, i can no longer do it justice by going on and on about it.

Soon everybody will ask what became of you, and with much adu,

 ~ Erin