Anthony is snoring... and this makes me want to take another nap

Anybody else love the feeling of freshly cut hair? i do... it's one of those things that can brighten my day.  I got some chopped off today with Mark (whom i adore, like a second father) and then went with dad to a really hole in the wall tiny sandwich place on Ventura. SOOOOO crowded in there, but i will have to admit that my turkey sandwich was probably the best i've had in a long time, and i was eyeing my dad pastrami. It's a good thing he didn't leave or else i might have been tempted to take it and run (to where i don't know seeing as he was driving)

My phone keeps going off. I'm too lazy to go get it. Which is often the case. I'm just a lazy person in general, if you haven't already figured this out. But in my attempt to not be lazy and be somewhat productive, i did go for a run and am considering baking something, unhealthy, perhaps red velvet cupcakes again? with faux cream cheese frosting. i did find THE WORST red velvet cupcakes on tuesday with marjorie. Some little place near encino called Beau's bakery. The cupcake was more like a dry choc cupcake with runny and almost non existent frosting. I ate it out of obligation since marjorie spent $3 on it. 

Anthony and i went to the topanga mall yesterday and i think it was more fun getting there than being there. We screamed and vented and stopped at this place that sells punching bags and pretended to post pictures of the people we're frustrated at on them. We also went by the place that used to be home to the church where my parents were married and then spotted the peruvian restaurant that i've wanted to try for like 10 years. I don't know why i never get around to it. Gotta just get there one day. I'll drag maribel maybe. or marjorie. And i also found out that the topanga mall has some pretty upscale stores stuch as jimmy choo... and tiffany's. I wanted to go into the Jimmy Choo store, but the fact that i would fall in love with a pair of shoes and spend all of my money on a $2000 pair of shoes is what stopped me. Le sigh... being broke sucks sometimes.

Oh and check out postcardsfromyomomma.com . you'll be happy you stopped by

That Crest pro health toothpaste left a funny taste in my mouth

not sure if it's supposed to taste like that or not. So i finally got my copy of paper towns by john green. And it's actually pretty fabulous. So far atleast. ha ha i'm only on page 60 though. i took it as a recommendation from someone. most of the books i read are actually recommendations. like the shack, lullaby, paper towns... what else have i forgotten?

I'm supposed to be working on a resume to fax into a lawyer on monday, but i'm too easily distracted and i feel as though doing 2 sets of taxes in a day fulfills any requirements for having a productive and meaningful day. They're time consuming but they're really not as hard as everyone makes them out to be. But maybe that's just me. I've spent all day in my pj's. When i had to go get ice cream i just throw on jeans, and then got home and took them off and just watched Grey's anatomy while eating the ice cream. Wasn't as good as i'd hoped, which is a sign that you should just stick to what you like, rather than trying new mixes at coldstones. 

I'm going to see Jenny Lewis on April 13!!! i'm so excited. I really did want to go to coachella but i don't think that's going to happen. I've become obsessed with her and rilo kiley in about the last month and i was really excited that she's actually on tour right now. So i'll be posting one of each. Not much to talk about. Just got to get a somewhat early night for church tomorrow and also be coherent for a family BBQ after that. I've always wondered why my family has never had one of those big family reunions. I mean how often do you get to see family, other than immediate family and maybe grandparents and a few cousins? just a thought.

spring break is in 3 weeks. any ideas on what i should do? i'm strapped for cash and wont have a car... so i'll need realistic options, rather than being drunk 24/7 and completing my entire netflix list. So i also enjoy food but i'll have to be changing what i eat. I'll be on the low carb diet. I'll be a bitch for a while, hopefully eventually a skinny bitch. So consider yourself warned.

you are what you love - Jenny Lewis

This is no great illusion
When I'm with you I'm looking for a ghost
Or invisible reasons
To fall out of love and run screaming from our home

Because we live in a house of mirrors
We see our fears and everything
Our songs, faces, and second hand clothes
But more and more we're suffering
Not nobody, not a thousand beers
Will keep us from feeling so all alone

But you are what you love
And not what loves you back
That's why I'm here on your doorstep
Pleading for you to take me back

The phone is a fine invention
It allows me to talk endlessly to you
About nothing disguising my intentions
Which I'm afraid, my friend, are wildly untrue

It's a sleight of hand, a white soul band
The heart attacks I'm convinced I have
Every morning upon waking
To you I'm a symbol or a monument
Your rite of passage to fufillment
But I'm not yours for the taking

But you are what you love
And not what loves you back
So I guess that's why you keep calling me back

I'm fraudulent, a thief at best
A coward who paints a bullshit canvas
Things that will never happen to me
But at arms length, it's Tim who said
I'm good at it, I've mastered it
Avoiding, avoiding everything

But you are what you love, Tim
And not what loves you back
And I'm in love with illusions
So saw me in half
I'm in love with tricks
So pull another rabbit out of your hat

And if you prefer coffee, well you can go die in a hole

ha ha charlie, the english guy from Bath on youtube, totally makes being sick a little bit more bearable. So i don't have much to talk about. But i feel the need to update you all a bit, as i stay up until 2 am watching late night with jimmy fallon and finishing "open city", at the same time. It only works because i was only half paying attention to jimmy fallon while reading italian subtitles.

haha so for all of you who don't already know, driving miss brittany is an amazing blog and she's super cute. She drives and talks to you at the same time, which should probably be illegal. ha ha so check her out for me. you'll love her. i promise

http://drivingmissbrittany.blogspot.com/2009/03/slacker.html

So it's been oddly cold here lately. i'm so cold for being a california girl and it's a little sad really because as i moan and complain about it to my other friends, they laugh, roll their eyes, and say "yeah well it was 9 F here today". But it's been raining here a bit lately and i finally found THE BEST spot in the house after living here for 7 months. ha ha. There are some couches in out study room and i just sit in the corner with some blankets and nobody ever goes in there so it's like my own little haven.

so i'm watchng this little documentary thing on Robert Francis. and he seems pretty damn interesting. so i'm going to use him as my lyric musician tonight. he's kinda folksy, but i like it actually. check him out also. woo hoo tonight is like recomendation night or something. ( i couldnt find lyrics to the song one by one, so little girl is the substitute)

ha ha oh btw i must say how stoked i am for the NO DOUBT tour!!! i bought my tickets for bakersfield with Paramore and The Sounds. The last 2 are pretty much the reason i'm going. I spent $186.05 on 2 tickets. EEEEEKKK!!! but so worth it... hopefully. Also i found out it is possible to rent a car if you're under 25. You just need to use a certain rental agency. Enterprise does it.

Little Girl - Robert Francis

You said you want to be outside and you want to feel alive
I said I didnt want to move I just wanted to survive
So I sit here waiting for the sun to come
And I watched it rise like wed never done

I want to kill myself just to kill all the pain
But then youd know youd feel like youre the one to blame
You were just too young and just too smart
Probably the best candidate for a broken heart

Rock and roll my little girl
Rock and roll in your big big world

Rock and roll my little girl
Rock and roll in your big big world

In a drunken state I call your name
From the bottom of my soul to the blood in my veins
Those days in the car when I couldnt pull through
You sang to me and all I wanted was you

I cant seem to do anything right anymore
How the days are so long and the nights are a blur
I want you to know that Ill always be the only one there
While you listen to his heartbeat 
While he runs his hands through your hair

Rock and roll my little girl
Rock and roll in your big big world

Each day he works past the 9 to 5
Tell me tell me how does he know if youre even still alive
You made a portrait of myself and it made me cry
And through all the tears I lost I looked myself in the eye

What kind of man have I become that I have to let this go
Fate has made a fool of me Ill reap now what I sow
We were just two people alike indignity
Felt the ancient grudge to the mutiny of me

And I guess this is where well end our scene
Where my civil blood leaves my seething hands unclean

Rock and roll my little girl
Rock and roll in your big big world

Running from Lions (metaphorically of course)

So it's after 1 am and i'm just chillin' in my room for the first time in a long time. My roommate didn't come home tonight so i can just sit in bed or mess around in the room without worrying about her sleeping. Having a granola bar and some wheat thins. yummy yummy yummy.

But for what i thought was a shitty week and what  i thought was going to be an even worse weekend, it actually turned out pretty good. I finished house (up to season 4 and let me say that episdoe 15 or the FINALE of season 4 is by far THE BEST EPISODE!!! It's a two parter), worked out a bit, did some reading and reread notes, slept, some food shopping, and talked to John Mielke and HAYLEY WILLIAMS!! ha ha 2 nights in a row. She's been in the chat room's on PFC lately, and she's almost becoming a regular. I'm making some cool friends in there. One of them lives in Australia which is pretty exciting and fun. Also there is always someone in there who'll have the whole chat and can send it to you. so i have tonights chat all down and i'm going to look over it when i get a chance.

But whenever hayley is in the chat room it's like a sea of questions and comments (even though there is only about 30 of us in there at one time) but we talk about anything and everything from bands and movies, to music, to shirt ideas and just random comments and questions. It's just fun to chill in there and everyone acts like its a normal chat room and doesn't create and entire sphere of devoting it to her, which is cool. Jeremy needs to come in at some time though and kick it with us. Hayley even gave us some lyrics to a song called fat hat thats going to be on the new album. See i knew paying $40 a year to be a member would pay off.

so i watched "how to lose friends and alienate people" with simon pegg, kirsten dunst, and megan fox. Sad Sad waste of time. Such as stupid see through movie. I can't believe i wasted my time on it. and it's sad because i kinda like kirsten dunst and really love simon pegg. 

The scarf that i have spent so much time on is really coming along. I gave up last night on what i had done and started from scratch. So for about 3 hours last night i just crocheted away while listening to keep fishin by weezer and julia nunes... ha ha and while typing this i got distracted to play the weezer song and then somehow started checking youtube and then eneded up watching college is hard before realizing i was forgetting to type this. check them out.. they're absoutely entertaining an really good for just being college students and learning how to use a camera. I can't wait for this semesters episode to come out. Check them out on youtube @ http://www.youtube.com/user/collegeishardtheshow or you can go to collegeishard.tv. trust me. you won't regret this.

so i've lost the song that i had wanted tp post about 2 days ago... and i know this wasn't it but it will have to do unti l icome across it again... this is called embers and envelopes by MAE.. enjoy

We write to apologize.
We ask to look past life as it goes by.
I know you have sacrificed time,
life, love, time to fly.
Please consider all things trite,
forgiveness will be the thing that gets us by.
I know to have something like this
broken is hard to fix.

(refrain)
Embers, we're burning bridges down.
Oh! Envelopes stuffed with feelings found.
To write this down as means to reconcile.

We write to patch things up,
maybe not to agree but to proclaim love.
Let's look ahead and then we'll see the one
whose glory never ends.
And based on that we'll see,
there'll be room for change, but gradually.
I know to have something like this
broken is hard to fix.

(refrain)
Embers, we're burning bridges down.
Oh! Envelopes stuffed with feelings found.
To write this down as means to reconcile.(x4)

(bridge)
If all is said and done and over,
if we don't have to, we're not gonna.
Make the change, it's worth the try.
What's broken can be fixed tonight.
(refrain plays the same time as the bridge)

Embers, we're burning bridges down.
Oh! Envelopes stuffed with feelings found.
To write this down as means to reconcile.(x2)