My Phone Now Has The Same Message Notification Tone as Vespa from Casino Royale

ha ha yes!!! i'm not exactly sure what kind of phone she had, but i think it's somewhat similar. I now own a blackberry pearl and it makes me happy. I've been playing around with it for about the last 24 hours. It's a second hand one so i had to wipe the memory. But i can't sync it to my mac book and i can't transfer things from my old phone. It makes me sad since all my jenny lewis stuff from the concert is on there.

SPEAKING of Jenny Lewis, she was AMAZING on monday night. I drove all the way to Pomona for it, but it was actually a fairly easy drive and Pomona is way nicer than mum said it would be. They have this area called Antique Row, which is right across the street from the Glass House. I was expecting some huge concert hall, but it only holds no more than 800 people. I walked into this little bookshop across from the glass house before getting in line, and this lady in there has cd's from almost all the artists that have played at the Glass House.

We got to watch this 45 minute film called "welcome to Van Nuys". And it was a documentary on the making on Acid Tongue in 2008. And i had no idea she was from the valley. It made me happy, but i don't now why cuz it's not like i'll be running into her all the time or that she even lives here, ha ha.  There was an opening band called DAWES... and they were ok, but i felt really nauseous because i hadn't eaten in a while and had been standing for quite some time. So that might have affected my judgement. I thought their bassist was really good but i couldn't stop looking at the drummer who made the weirdest faces while drumming. Like kids make when something is horribly smelly and i can't even describe it, but his face made me laugh.

But the main point of this is Jenny Lewis. And she was amazing. This is the first time i've seen her in person and she is so cute and lovely and pretty. And very sweet. She did a cover and a mix of songs off of Rabbit Fur Coat and some off of Acid tongue. She also did 2 or 3 from Rilo Kiley which made me excited because it meant she did Silver Lining. And I actually cried during Under the Blacklight. Not for the lyrics but the way she sang it and she explained the story behind it being a friend of hers. She also did You are what you love and that was just enough to make the 2 hour drive to Pomona worth it. I'm trying to recall all the songs she did. It was about 90 minutes she was performing which i would say is a little longer than most acts usually go on for. I only didn't know about 3 songs ( the cover and 2 others)

Acid tongue

Pretty Bird

Next Messiah

Bad Man's World

See Fernando 

Godspeed

Carpetbaggers

Trying my best to love you

Jack Killed Mom

Melt you Heart

Rabbit Fur Coat ( she actually forgot the words in the second verse, and ended up skipping to the next verse after a minute. She was embarrassed but it was really cute i thought)

Rise up with fists ( this was part of the encore at the end of the show)

Happy (also encore)

You are what you love

The charging sky

From Rilo Kiley

Silver Lining

Under the Blacklight

anyway... since a Rilo Kiley or Jenny Lewis song would just be expected, i decided to pick...

An Attempt to Tip The Scales - Bright Eyes

Did you expect it all to stop at the wave of your hand?
Like the sun's just going to drop if it's night you demand.
Well, in the dark we're just air so the house might dissolve.
But once we are gone, who's gonna care if we were ever here at all?
Well, summer's going to come, it's gonna cloud our eyes again.
No need to focus when there's nothing that's worth seeing.
So we trade liquor for blood in an attempt to tip the scales.
I think you lost what you loved in that mess of details.
They seemed so important at the time
but now you can't even recall any of the names, faces, or lines.
It's more the feeling of it all.
Well, winter is going to end, I'm going to clean these veins again.
So close to dying that I finally can start living.

I Was Your Silver Lining But Now I'm Gold

 Has anyone ever wondered what it is that defines you? what is it that you base your self esteem of off? I mean you have pretty much 2 options. Either you base yourself off an intrinsic value or you base yourself off of the extrinsic, outside sources and achievements. I've been asking myself this question for a while since in my Political Behavior class this is the great debate between Freud and Neitzsche and Fromm. I've personally come to the conclusion that self value and happiness is based off of an extrinsic source. Part of this is based on the idea that physical activities such as sex or working out provide this euphoric feeling. Along these lines you can use Freud's idea that man is only happy when he is productive or is a producer. People often only feel happy when they have seen that they are productive with their lives and have lives with drive and purpose. Even if they don't like their job, the act of producing money to provide for themselves/ family makes them happy. God created man in his image, and as god being a creator, man must also enjoy the act of creation just as god did. Along the lines of explaining God, I personally view God as an outside force. It is not him that lives in us, rather the holy spirit. Although God has instilled morals and values and a mind inside of each human being, it is not these elements that creates a self worth and value inside of people. Also man is intrinsically evil. This basis provides that the intrinsic self worth of one would not be one of which people would want to base themselves. 

So sorry to have randomly opened this blog like that, but it's something i've been thinking about for a while. I do feel that maybe there are elements and views which people may provide to back up why they believe that values are intrinsic. But the idea of an intrinsic and extrinsic value seems to only be a position made by people who see both points but can't choose a side.

But onto new things. Spring break is finally here and i'm so excited. I'm so ready for even more sleeping in, going out with friends, and not being here worrying about roommates. I am on the hunt for a job though. It;s so much harder than i remember it being. It's been over 2 years since i've have to look for a job. Hoping for an office job but i need money soon so i might just end up at target soon ha ha but we'll try to avoid that.

Manhattan - Kings Of Leon

I could dance all night 
And some of the day 
That's how I play 
That's how I play 

I say who are you 
No matter who you are 
So you dance all night 
And you dance all day 

I say 
I say 

Gonna build a fire 
Gonna smoke it up 
Gonna sip this wine 
And pass the cup 

These avenues and 
These reseviors 
We gonna show this town 
How to kiss these stars 

I say 
I say 

You've come to kill 
Gonna spend it high 
Your parents grieve 
I know they are right 

And then talking to you 
Well they calm you down 
So it's all for you 
Who let you down 

I say 
I say 
I say 
I say 

Just wanna take you hand 
I'm gonna drive you home 
Just gonna keep on 
Keep on, keep on 
And you gonna have a rest

You do your best to show me love, but you don't know what love is

sorry it's been so long since i last updated. really no excuse seeing as i have almost 2 weeks of spring break. but little gets done in my free days when there is nothing to procrastinate against. Maribel has moved out and i am awaiting the arrival of the next roommate. My room looks a little weird being so empty and i would like to fill it, but what would be the point.

But on to bigger and better news. PARAMORE is living somewhere in the San Fernando Valley and i have yet to find them. i'm hoping i find them fairly soon seeing as they're about half way done with recording their next album. And i want so badly to see zac and have some pinkberry with him.

Ahhhh.... not much else going on here... i found that julia nunes can brighten my day no matter how shitty of a day it is. Also i ate the box of chocolates i bought for my mum for her birthday. le sigh... i just wanted choc. ha ha yeah probably not going to help my weight loss. But i am totally stoked to say i've been running everyday and doing yoga. So i feel better about myself. which should be a good sign. Also learned that drinking is really bad during weight loss. So no more drinking. sorry boys and girls. 

There really isn't a lot to talk about since i have little to do. i did go get a massage today. but thats not really interesting. i also haven't really talked to chris in a while and i feel like a total slacker cuz i should really be trying a little harder to get a hold of him. anyway. luv you all. and leave me a comment or two if you can. 

P.S. the tree of the picture above is what i plan on getting tattooed on my lower left back, with the phrase constants become surreal somehow entwined in it. anyway lots of love.

~ erinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

heart shaped gun - Augustana (i love this song. but they never recorded it for an album. its only available on the flash drive for the live san diego concert)

Sky black and blue
Blue turn to red
I'm in love with you, girl
I might as well be dead

I ain't a fool
And honey you're just a kid
A bottle of wine
And a pack of cigarettes
Your cigarettes

Hey boy you're bleeding for nothing
It's hard to miss when you're shooting a heart shaped gun
You'll slit your skin to find freedom
You'll kill yourself to find anything at all

Lock all the doors
And put the child to rest
Slip on down your skirt, babe
C'mon lower down your dress

'Cause I got the keys
Straight to your heart
I can't afford a ring
And it's tearin you apart
The castle wall's been breached, babe
I'm kissin down your neck
You're just throwin rocks 
And slippin into bed

'Cause hey boy you're bleeding for nothing
It's hard to miss when you're shooting a heart shaped gun
You'll slit your skin to find freedom
You'll kill yourself to find anything, find anything at all

Well the money's slow 
And the cancer rolls
Gotch your baby due in July
Well if I can fake it
Yeah the cash could take it
Our troubles, our worries, our problems all away

'Cause hey boy you're bleeding for nothing
And it's hard to breathe when you're shooting a heart shaped gun
'Cause you'll slit your skin to find freedom
You'll kill yourself to find anything, find anything at all

Hey boy you're bleeding for nothing
You'll kill yourself to find anything, find anything at all
Anything at all