You do your best to show me love, but you don't know what love is

sorry it's been so long since i last updated. really no excuse seeing as i have almost 2 weeks of spring break. but little gets done in my free days when there is nothing to procrastinate against. Maribel has moved out and i am awaiting the arrival of the next roommate. My room looks a little weird being so empty and i would like to fill it, but what would be the point.

But on to bigger and better news. PARAMORE is living somewhere in the San Fernando Valley and i have yet to find them. i'm hoping i find them fairly soon seeing as they're about half way done with recording their next album. And i want so badly to see zac and have some pinkberry with him.

Ahhhh.... not much else going on here... i found that julia nunes can brighten my day no matter how shitty of a day it is. Also i ate the box of chocolates i bought for my mum for her birthday. le sigh... i just wanted choc. ha ha yeah probably not going to help my weight loss. But i am totally stoked to say i've been running everyday and doing yoga. So i feel better about myself. which should be a good sign. Also learned that drinking is really bad during weight loss. So no more drinking. sorry boys and girls. 

There really isn't a lot to talk about since i have little to do. i did go get a massage today. but thats not really interesting. i also haven't really talked to chris in a while and i feel like a total slacker cuz i should really be trying a little harder to get a hold of him. anyway. luv you all. and leave me a comment or two if you can. 

P.S. the tree of the picture above is what i plan on getting tattooed on my lower left back, with the phrase constants become surreal somehow entwined in it. anyway lots of love.

~ erinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

heart shaped gun - Augustana (i love this song. but they never recorded it for an album. its only available on the flash drive for the live san diego concert)

Sky black and blue
Blue turn to red
I'm in love with you, girl
I might as well be dead

I ain't a fool
And honey you're just a kid
A bottle of wine
And a pack of cigarettes
Your cigarettes

Hey boy you're bleeding for nothing
It's hard to miss when you're shooting a heart shaped gun
You'll slit your skin to find freedom
You'll kill yourself to find anything at all

Lock all the doors
And put the child to rest
Slip on down your skirt, babe
C'mon lower down your dress

'Cause I got the keys
Straight to your heart
I can't afford a ring
And it's tearin you apart
The castle wall's been breached, babe
I'm kissin down your neck
You're just throwin rocks 
And slippin into bed

'Cause hey boy you're bleeding for nothing
It's hard to miss when you're shooting a heart shaped gun
You'll slit your skin to find freedom
You'll kill yourself to find anything, find anything at all

Well the money's slow 
And the cancer rolls
Gotch your baby due in July
Well if I can fake it
Yeah the cash could take it
Our troubles, our worries, our problems all away

'Cause hey boy you're bleeding for nothing
And it's hard to breathe when you're shooting a heart shaped gun
'Cause you'll slit your skin to find freedom
You'll kill yourself to find anything, find anything at all

Hey boy you're bleeding for nothing
You'll kill yourself to find anything, find anything at all
Anything at all